Searching for a true change
 

Hello All... I'm Jill W. I have a difficult time getting to meetings and I'm losing hope. My last bender I almost lost my family, there is no bargaining anymore. If I begin to drink again - I know it will be then end for me. I have been sober since August 1st. I have completed step 1 & 2 but want help to continue.

jillis, congratulations on your sobriety, welcome to SR.

for me, people here are supportive, encouraging and non judgmental, i think it is a good addition to your recovery.

glad you posted.

Thank you! It may take me a while to get accustomed to the forum but I will keep looking for support. I want to start a real life

Welcome Jill, Glad you are here. Congrats on your sober time. :)

Hi and Welcome!

Congratulations on your sobriety!

Welcome Jill. You will find an amazing, understanding and non judgemental support network here.

Congratulations on making a decision and moving forward.

Thank you! I'm excited :-) Is it unheard of to find someone in the online environment to do step work with? I have not been able to find a local sponsor (it's a long long story) but I want to do some real work on my recovery! I am expecting a baby on April 9th... Like my doctor says I have some time to practice ! The real work will come after baby is here. I pray to have a supportive community by that time. Currently ... I'm still wanting to have a life of drinking. Still fleeting thoughts that I can be like a normal person. I'm 34! I have spent TEN years trying to control my drinking. I am an alcoholic. End of story. Praying to "get it". The previous 2 years have scared me (and my family ) to no end. behaviors they (or i ) have never known possible :-( Like so many others! I want peace and serenity damn it lol. Thanks for listening to me and I look forward to using this forum !!

:welcome and congrats on your sober time. :hug: You've made a wise decision to stop drinking. I gave it up almost four years ago and don't regret a minute of my sober life.:)

Welcome and congrats!