Quick Day 2 Check In ..
What are you suggesting here? That getting sober will somehow not allow you to keep or attain what you love and cherish? Or is this a separate issue? I can't personally think of any reason sobriety would take any of that away from you. Quite the contrary, drinking will definitely take things away - potentially even your life.
Me not living here would mean giving up all that I cherish and love ... So if I was to go back to my home town it would be an end ...
As for living here; for now yes it is temporary; until all the red tape is worked through ..
AW
I am NOT unhappy w\ my job .. I love ti Although it is killing me slowly b\c of my back lol But I love my job .. I am unhappy that I have to cut my hours so I can get SSI But my back and pain are getting worse anyway ..
As for living here; for now yes it is temporary; until all the red tape is worked through ..
AW
As for living here; for now yes it is temporary; until all the red tape is worked through ..
AW
I've kind of thought that all along. You can't move forward until you move on from the past AW. Perhaps you need to seek some local help/counseling in that area too. Sorry to put it so bluntly but I think that might be where many of your problems are coming from.
And also notice once again you've used a "BUT" in your reply as to why something won't work.
You mentioned just a few replies ago that you realize it's all on you. That's great. Now you have to take action on that realization. We'd love to keep helping here AW, and we will. But at certain point there's nothing left for us TO do if you don't take any of our advice.
Sometimes in recovery our struggles have nothing to do with alcohol! To me, and I may be misreading, yours today seem that way. I honestly can't imagine being in a home that was built on a love lost. A one sided loss
Is there any little hope of reconciliation that's keeping you there or is it really a matter of no where else to go?
Is there any little hope of reconciliation that's keeping you there or is it really a matter of no where else to go?
Just think being with your ex can cause all kinds of unsteadiness. Will we won't we you know what I mean!
As for us getting back together; yes it is a very strong possibility .. Knowing my ex like I do; I am almost assured it will happen .. But I as a person would like a clear this and move forward before we can commit again ..
Notice I said help/counseling. There are many, many resources you could take advantage of to help you with both sobriety and mental health issues. Books, websites, support groups, etc....i had listed several and others here have done the same. All of these are free and you could be using all of them now.
And also notice once again you've used a "BUT" in your reply as to why something won't work.
You mentioned just a few replies ago that you realize it's all on you. That's great. Now you have to take action on that realization. We'd love to keep helping here AW, and we will. But at certain point there's nothing left for us TO do if you don't take any of our advice.
And also notice once again you've used a "BUT" in your reply as to why something won't work.
You mentioned just a few replies ago that you realize it's all on you. That's great. Now you have to take action on that realization. We'd love to keep helping here AW, and we will. But at certain point there's nothing left for us TO do if you don't take any of our advice.
I appreciate the suggestions and the help I do .. But I am a freak Sorry ...
AW
But ty for seeing that .. Not to mention a kind message after I feel I been attacked all day
lorelei; you can PM me any time you like As well anyone else
AW
And I understand all this .. but any place for counsling is either a $$ or in boston; I do NOT like people .. Me and crowds never work .. so I do not have the $$$$ to take a bus and get off 5 minutes later b\c of crowds; only to get back on and then get off 5 minutes later to avoid more crowds .
I appreciate the suggestions and the help I do .. But I am a freak Sorry ...
AW
I appreciate the suggestions and the help I do .. But I am a freak Sorry ...
AW
I feel that it's probably in the best interest of you and myself to pull away from commenting on your threads. It's clear i've taken things too personally and I apologize for that. I wish you the very best in both your sobriety and other issues you are dealing with.
Please do not feel you are in any way hindering me or attacking me or causing me strife .. I love your comments as well as Look up to them .. I am trying to be as open and grounded as possible ..
Please if reading my B$ or commenting on my B$ is causing any discomfort then yes walk away .. But know that I respect and read every comment you make ..
AW
Getting me settled and out of her house is a priority that will most likely lead to me being back here lol But until then I need to focus on living up here w\ out her and such ..
AW
I think Scott is frustated (as I am) by reading your posts and thinking Damnit AW just doesn't get it!!
This really sticks out:
"But my sobriety can not be #1 if things like a roof over my head and eating and surviving are on that list .. I am sorry to put it that way; But having a roof over my head and food in my belly out weighs anything else .. I am sober now; plan to keep fighting and will see where it leads me .. but as for "dropping" everything and making it #1; in the real world that can not happen I am sorry if you can not agree or see my point; But it just can't .. "
WHAT? If there is one thing that leads to people not having a roof, not having a job, not having loved ones, hating themselves - it's being a drunk. How does NOT DRINKING "get in the way" of ensuring that you have the basic life necessities? I just don't get it.
It's frustrating because you seem like such an intelligent, sensitive person who clearly is struggling deeply and yet in every one of your posts I see excuses, explanations and expectations that you are going to get drunk again. Just don't drink. Suffer? Sure. Just don't drink. There's a million other things in the world to do other than that one thing. Just don't drink.
This really sticks out:
"But my sobriety can not be #1 if things like a roof over my head and eating and surviving are on that list .. I am sorry to put it that way; But having a roof over my head and food in my belly out weighs anything else .. I am sober now; plan to keep fighting and will see where it leads me .. but as for "dropping" everything and making it #1; in the real world that can not happen I am sorry if you can not agree or see my point; But it just can't .. "
WHAT? If there is one thing that leads to people not having a roof, not having a job, not having loved ones, hating themselves - it's being a drunk. How does NOT DRINKING "get in the way" of ensuring that you have the basic life necessities? I just don't get it.
It's frustrating because you seem like such an intelligent, sensitive person who clearly is struggling deeply and yet in every one of your posts I see excuses, explanations and expectations that you are going to get drunk again. Just don't drink. Suffer? Sure. Just don't drink. There's a million other things in the world to do other than that one thing. Just don't drink.
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