AugustWest11

Earlier in a post someone said it might be my day 20 or something :p Anyway trying to keep up w\ the count myself this time so I can get as much positive thoughts of accomplishment to help drag me out of this hole ...

almost 5pm here; I work at 11pm tonight; and I am still not tired *sigh* tried laying down reading and so on .. Finishing my tea, shower again; then lay down and hope lol will most likely have my android w\ me cause if I lay there I can just tell if I am gonna crash or not ..

hayley86

Congrats on your sober time. I hope you start to feel a bit better soon. Stay strong.

AugustWest11

Thanx Hayley; Everything just hit at once and getting sober\my last binge my life is catching up w\ me and I am trying ..

Dee74

congrats on day 19 keep going aw

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AugustWest11

Well I KNOW I will make 3 weeks now :p I won't drink around the Ex. Hence I have that "window" I try to avoid each day .. Sleep ain't gonna happen for me today But positive note; I will be dead tired tomorrow to think of booze or dark thoughts LoL

hayley86

I think all anyone can do is try their very best each day. Although my problems did not magically disappear when i got sober i was much more able to deal with them and make the right choices. Drinking really does make every problem much worse. You will make 3 weeks because you are determined to. Stay focused and keep doing whats working... posting on here and trying to avoid as many triggers as you can. Wishing you the best.

AugustWest11

Yea I know drinking makes it all worse .. I realize that; I KNOW it but yet I am overwhelmed to the point escape; even if briefly seems my only way out sometimes .. thanx Hayley