Day 4...threw out all empty bottles
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Day 4...threw out all empty bottles
Hey everyone, Im feeling really good. I really feel like my last drunk was my low..I just have a gut feeling another drunk can be deadly. Its a strange feeling, but I always trust my instincts. Drinking anything in this house with alcohol in it is definetly insane. I just went through my closet and hiding spots to throw away all the empty bottles today. I cried while doing it. It's like my eyes are barely opening to how sick I really am. I cant believe I had put so much poison in my body for so long.
On the plus aide my new sponsor is awesome. I am getting on my knees every morning and night, praying to God. Asking him to keep me sober another day amd thanking him evey night for doing so. I have also started journaling and directing my letters to God. It feels really good, and I'm glad to be on this road to recovery. Thanks for letting share this with you all.
On the plus aide my new sponsor is awesome. I am getting on my knees every morning and night, praying to God. Asking him to keep me sober another day amd thanking him evey night for doing so. I have also started journaling and directing my letters to God. It feels really good, and I'm glad to be on this road to recovery. Thanks for letting share this with you all.
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Great change from your last thread! I hope you have made the breakthrough you need. Do you have a plan for the days when you're feeling really down? I hope SR is part of it.
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Thank you everyone. Your support means so much. Im on day 5 and feeling really good. I havent even craved. The thought is literally repulsive. I have been cleaning all day and playing with my daughter, I love having this energy. My kids deserve a mom who is better. Just because they dont see me drink and I only drink when they are asleep does not make it ok. Me dying from this disease is very possible and I could never leave my children motherless.
I have several plans of action. My first is AA, I love the people I have met and talking about this addiction with others who understand helps. I have several great friends in AA who I hang out with in my free time. That keeps me busy and away from alcohol. When I am home I browse SR and post here. I have told my husband about my last drunk..he is very supportive, and Im so grateful for him.
I have several plans of action. My first is AA, I love the people I have met and talking about this addiction with others who understand helps. I have several great friends in AA who I hang out with in my free time. That keeps me busy and away from alcohol. When I am home I browse SR and post here. I have told my husband about my last drunk..he is very supportive, and Im so grateful for him.
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Sounds like you're doing great,javamama.
I waited till after 2 weeks before I cleaned out my empty bottle stash. I was actually afraid I might find some left in a bottle. I was also shocked at how many empty bottles I had hidden.
I waited till after 2 weeks before I cleaned out my empty bottle stash. I was actually afraid I might find some left in a bottle. I was also shocked at how many empty bottles I had hidden.
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