Forget august
 

Never made it it :(

I am on weeks holiday this week, so all i can do is keep on trying. I have said before in another post is i have alcohol services on wed and im plainning on sorting my daughters room tomorrow and if not to tired is go to the gym.

Still trying to keep it in the day, but my tablets are just not working for me this time. It did some yrs ago which i did give up alcohol for a year.

really struggling and again having probs in nipping this in the bud.

:headbange

what kind of tablets?

Just keep trying!!! You can quit this!!

Im on campral it worked when i gave up for the yr but this time its not even touching it.

Guess having a bad day

Start fresh - you can do it. Have confidence and be good to yourself.

I'm sorry to hear your struggling . No one said it was easy , right. What I do know is that if we use the reason we used will still be there plus the guilt and regret of using. We're here for you. God bless

Tr

Thanks triky xx

Went for lay down and woken up in bad mood.

The is im sick and tired of the drink, im also sick when i drink it. What is there to miss?

sooo pissed off with myself, but thats easy to do when drinking.

och i dont know

Stick with us, Erratic! It would probably do you good to get over the withdrawal while you are on holiday, instead of calling in sick for work.

Thanks cold x i havent phoned into work due i am on holiday this week.

Today is ive bought drink and im drinking. Dont know where my head is, i do have like i said many times i do have alcohol servises on wed.

going to see how much they will help. If not i think i will ask to go back into hospital and start again. Its been 9wks when i was in and i did 2 wks and things again have started again. My campral is not working, so hoping something else will work.

Thanks for everyone support and i still want to do this!

(((E))) What's going on that's brought on the drinking ? Talk about it

Huggs

Tr

Erratic - you need to get some of that William Wallace steely determination in you :)
How about some damage limitation? Can u slow down or even stop?
Wishing you strength.

The only thing that works is not drinking. I know it sounds trite, but buying drink to have in your house 'just in case' is not setting yourself up for success.

Can you pour it down the sink? Or give it away? It is important that you go to Alcohol Services appointment with a clear head and no alcohol in your system. Give that a go, and believe you can do this. To do that, you have to start not drinking, and then not quit. Take advantage of the help you can find yourself, and make things as easy for yourself as you can do.

Steady as she goes there, Erratic. You can do this. Onward!

Erratic it's a new month. You're making positive changes by going to alcohol services this month. Lets try to make September your month!

Thanks again for the new replies x

Yesterday ended badly, my daughter found out i had a drink yesterday. She was totaly upset about it, all i could tell her was that it was a slip. She hasnt known that i was drinking again as i hid myself from her.

She said last night she wants to spend some time with me this evening, so we are going to the pictures and get something to eat.

I cant let her down, so this month will be my month and will see how things go tomorrow with alcohol service.

Thanks again for everyone support in this, i wouldnt know what to do if i didnt come here. huggles to all xx

Please let us know how the appointment goes.

Huggles to you, Erratic and well done for not giving up giving up :bigok:
I hope you enjoy the film tonight. By doing it sober, you'll even see the end - something I failed to do for years!

September is a great month for a fresh start:c011:

A fresh start! I like that idea a lot! You can do it.

thanks guys!

I had my night out with daughter and it went well.

However im still not sober. I went to alcohol services and they are going to send me a letter for next appointment.

i also had appointment for this afternoon, but haven't gone. not sure why but i have another appointment on monday.

I have also found out my psychotherapy is going to start at end of oct. Got my GP next week and im going to ask for a scan of my liver to see how far gone it is.

Whatever the scan shows means nothing in me goinng for absent in drinking, if it was i would of done that 4 or 5 yrs ago when told i had med fatty liver. Me saying that ofcause i am worried, but drink has this effect on me which i find it hard to stop. I gave up 5yrs ago or more which i stopped for a yr and this is where i started again. I became really ill and started to drink and smoke it a was after this that they found out i have a fatty liver disease.

Its hard for me and i know hard for everyone, its just my bpd that i seem to let it have control over me. so with alcohol services and pschyotherapy it will help the distructive things i do.

huggles to u all xxx

You can take back the control of your life and stop drinking today. If there is damage which you are concerned about, stopping now is the very best thing you can do. Stay positive about your health issues as much as possible. I'm glad you evening with your daughter went well.

Keep trying erratic, you'll get there!

Dear Erratic, please try to go to your appointment. It could help. Hugs and best wishes to you.