Single forever?
 

I'm isolating and tired. How do you ever make a family when you don't trust yourself, the next person, outdoors, work people, any ******* thing. What is this worth? I feel like getting really reckless because this is ******* stupid. I am so angry. I work hard. I am a good person. Yet I go home and cry my eyes out every night.

It's okay. Patience is key. Have you worked on your sobriety enough to feel comfortable in a relationship? Are you armed with the tools to meet a new person and remain alcohol and drug free? Do you know what kind of activities to plan with a partner? Do you know what type of partner to avoid? Do you know what you're looking for?

It took me almost one year - on the nose - to be comfortable enough to go on a date and let someone else share some personal time with me. No coincidence, that's the recommended time frame by most experts.

It seems like you might not be comfortable in your own skin right now - you'll get there. For the time being, be your own best friend and reward yourself by learning how to see the world through your own eyes.

those 12 steps helped me.

Cut yourself some slack, you are still sober and you are healing!!!!!!

I am sad because no one will ever understand me.

Stop beating yourself up. There are plenty of people who can understand you, and I'm sure you will be able to offer them the same when you get to a healthy place.

You need to understand you first and feel okay in your own skin. You'll glow with life!!!! Then, everyone will be smiling at you!!

Why not? Once you are sober, your are pretty much just like everyone else with one exception, you don't drink or use any chemical substance.

As for understanding your recovery, you don't have to let that define you. Get sober and then live you life as you like. There's no need to wear a sign on your head that states "I'm in Recovery". Just be you, a healthy woman who doesn't drink.