4 Months Ago Today
 

As I was working out at the gym this morning I realized that today marks 4 months of sobriety for me. I then started to recall how my life has changed in the past 4 months:

4 months ago today instead of maintaining a nice cardio heart rate on the elliptical machine, I was frantically thinking of reasons to send my husband upstairs (oh hon...I forgot my my shoes...can you grab them for me?) so I could sneak a sip from my glass in the cabinet.

4 months ago today I was logging into my bank account to see if I bounced any checks before payday and how much I had been in the red before our direct deposit. This morning, our bills are paid, and have extra for a trip to the outlets for back to school shopping.

4 months ago today I kissed my 6 year old on the top of the head before leaving for work so she wouldn't smell my boozy breath, and this morning I kissed her face all over before leaving, with only the worry of her complaining of my coffee breath.

4 months ago today I was 35 pounds heavier, and this morning I slipped into a pair of pants with ease that I couldn't get on before.

4 months ago today I was planning my Friday stop at the bar at work which would leave me later racing home to get there so hubby could leave for work and worrying he would be late and get in trouble. This morning I am looking forward to picking up my daughter after work and stopping at the farm stand for some fresh tomatoes (she eats tomatoes like apples), then off to dinner and shopping at the mall.

Words can't describe how much happier I have become since quitting alcohol. I heard someone say the other day a line that has stuck with me: "I was no longer consuming alcohol, alcohol was consuming me". That is so true, because 4 months ago today...alcohol consumed my every waking moment, either actively drinking it, or mentally planning how I could drink it.

I am proud to say that in the last 4 months, bit by bit, I am taking my life back!

Thanks to all here at SR that have been so helpful!! This place has been a lifeline for me.:tyou

Congratulations on 4 months and to many more months. :)

HELL YEAH! Good for you! :c011:

Awesome, Dollyangel! Congratulations!!!

Congratulations it can be done and you're doing it!!!!

Great post, Dolly! Really hit home for me as I used to do many of the same things. Way to go on 4 months! :)

4 months is great accomplishment!:You_Rock_

Congratulations on your progress and enlightenment. Continue to grow.

Yay for all Mummies who have coffee breath! xx

Congratulations Dolly on four months, and on getting such a positive message about sobriety out there!

I'm sure your kids really love spending more time with you now :) excellent on 4 months! That's not an easy accomplishment! Brilliant!

Dollyangel17 Fantastic for you...what a great read of living in the solution.

What an awesome testimony to how sobriety changes lives...both of the former drinker and those affected by it. Thank you for that and congratulations!!

GREAT POST! Congratulations!

Dolly I am truly so so so so proud of you! Even when times are tough you've always kept positive! You are an inspiration! I hope you enjoy this special day you deserve it.

Great post! Very inspirational and motivational! :tyou

Congrats on the 4 months! I'm happy that life keeps getting better for you!

What an inspirational message for those of us in the early stages of sobriety. Thank you for showing us how much better things can be if we stick with it. Congratulations, Dolly. :c015:

What a great post Dolly....congratulations....

Jim

Wahoo! Just the weight part alone made me happy, that's how much I've gained in a year! Congratulations on 4 months!

congratulations Dolly :)

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