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We don't hate you. We want to see you succeed. This board is full of addicts just like yourself (I am one of them!) that want to help other alcoholics and addicts find sobriety. I know it sounds cliche - in my case, I kept on drinking after I had a withdrawl seizure. And then another. It took the third one and a meeting with a medical professional who told me that my next seizure could be my last to get me to take this seriously.
I tried to taper as well. Well, I didn't try, really. It was more of an excuse, a way to make myself feel better. I was "at least trying" and I got to keep drinking - it was hard for me to do it too, which made me assume that since it was hard, it must be healthy. This turned out not to be true because I ended up binging again and just said "f* it" and went right back to my old habits.
It does not surprise me that, when left to your own choices (even against medical recommendations) that you have decided to continue drinking. It also does not surprise me that you have come up with "valid" reasons to do so (you do not want to take meds), and that you have created a list of things you "possibly might" do (you have a list of AA meetings). This is all very normal behavior for someone addicted to alcohol. I would have likely done the same. It was only on the third near-death experience in an 8 month span and a family intervention of sorts that finally got me into a rehab clinic.
We are pulling for you. And you are being honest, which is a huge step. Just remember, SR is here to assist you with the information we gather from our own experiences. Many of us have been there, been in denial, and spent months and years in couceling. Our knowledge can help, if you decide to listen. You have to really want it though. Do you?
I tried to taper as well. Well, I didn't try, really. It was more of an excuse, a way to make myself feel better. I was "at least trying" and I got to keep drinking - it was hard for me to do it too, which made me assume that since it was hard, it must be healthy. This turned out not to be true because I ended up binging again and just said "f* it" and went right back to my old habits.
It does not surprise me that, when left to your own choices (even against medical recommendations) that you have decided to continue drinking. It also does not surprise me that you have come up with "valid" reasons to do so (you do not want to take meds), and that you have created a list of things you "possibly might" do (you have a list of AA meetings). This is all very normal behavior for someone addicted to alcohol. I would have likely done the same. It was only on the third near-death experience in an 8 month span and a family intervention of sorts that finally got me into a rehab clinic.
We are pulling for you. And you are being honest, which is a huge step. Just remember, SR is here to assist you with the information we gather from our own experiences. Many of us have been there, been in denial, and spent months and years in couceling. Our knowledge can help, if you decide to listen. You have to really want it though. Do you?
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Originally Posted by Murchovski 
You seem to be engaged in an interesting approach.
Bit of a maverick, hey!
Anyhow I wish you well and hope it all comes together for you.......................
Bit of a maverick, hey!
Anyhow I wish you well and hope it all comes together for you.......................
Originally Posted by bigsombrero
We don't hate you. We want to see you succeed. This board is full of addicts just like yourself (I am one of them!) that want to help other alcoholics and addicts find sobriety. I know it sounds cliche - in my case, I kept on drinking after I had a withdrawl seizure. And then another. It took the third one and a meeting with a medical professional who told me that my next seizure could be my last to get me to take this seriously.
I tried to taper as well. Well, I didn't try, really. It was more of an excuse, a way to make myself feel better. I was "at least trying" and I got to keep drinking - it was hard for me to do it too, which made me assume that since it was hard, it must be healthy. This turned out not to be true because I ended up binging again and just said "f* it" and went right back to my old habits.
It does not surprise me that, when left to your own choices (even against medical recommendations) that you have decided to continue drinking. It also does not surprise me that you have come up with "valid" reasons to do so (you do not want to take meds), and that you have created a list of things you "possibly might" do (you have a list of AA meetings). This is all very normal behavior for someone addicted to alcohol. I would have likely done the same. It was only on the third near-death experience in an 8 month span and a family intervention of sorts that finally got me into a rehab clinic.
We are pulling for you. And you are being honest, which is a huge step. Just remember, SR is here to assist you with the information we gather from our own experiences. Many of us have been there, been in denial, and spent months and years in couceling. Our knowledge can help, if you decide to listen. You have to really want it though. Do you?
I tried to taper as well. Well, I didn't try, really. It was more of an excuse, a way to make myself feel better. I was "at least trying" and I got to keep drinking - it was hard for me to do it too, which made me assume that since it was hard, it must be healthy. This turned out not to be true because I ended up binging again and just said "f* it" and went right back to my old habits.
It does not surprise me that, when left to your own choices (even against medical recommendations) that you have decided to continue drinking. It also does not surprise me that you have come up with "valid" reasons to do so (you do not want to take meds), and that you have created a list of things you "possibly might" do (you have a list of AA meetings). This is all very normal behavior for someone addicted to alcohol. I would have likely done the same. It was only on the third near-death experience in an 8 month span and a family intervention of sorts that finally got me into a rehab clinic.
We are pulling for you. And you are being honest, which is a huge step. Just remember, SR is here to assist you with the information we gather from our own experiences. Many of us have been there, been in denial, and spent months and years in couceling. Our knowledge can help, if you decide to listen. You have to really want it though. Do you?
That said, tonight, my monkey mind was saying I shouldn't just buy one shot of voddie, just incase the withdrawal was too bad/save money buy a 1/4... 1/4 is nothing compared to what you are used to drinking/ you're doing so well, you deserve it... etc etc etc... And, I am ashamed to say I did buy a 1/4 and not my single shot like I'd intended. But I'm also happy to report I then came home, read more here, poured out one glass (it maybe a double :/) and then poured the bottle away and I still havent drank it yet. Infact, I find the wide awakeness from tapered amounts of drink, so mind numbingly, painfully boring, that I intend to shot it down whilst listening to my sleep meds. THEN i'm day ONE and I AM going to AA tommorrow! I've got the postcode ready for ma sat nav after work. I am also going to Slimming world before it cos I have a hour to kill. So I am committed to this! And, just pray I don't have any physical complications. That's my only worry from this method and from all I have read so far!
Anyway I've written a novel again. Just TY guys for your continued support and advice.
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Originally Posted by wakko
When are planning day one?
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The AA meeting is a big step - and an important one for early recovery. I am not active at this point but it really helped set the stage in my recovery and I'm glad I went in the early stages. I think you will be too! It will be great - I'd suggest asking around here on SR about going to your first meeting, you'll get some fantastic feedback! Remember, one step at a time.
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Originally Posted by bigsombrero
The AA meeting is a big step - and an important one for early recovery. I am not active at this point but it really helped set the stage in my recovery and I'm glad I went in the early stages. I think you will be too! It will be great - I'd suggest asking around here on SR about going to your first meeting, you'll get some fantastic feedback! Remember, one step at a time.
Yes, I don't really know what to expect! I've read the free books and read a lil on the forum. I don't mind Spirituality. Infact, i believe in a lot of what I read. I guess I just remember AA meetings from TV lol. I'm sure it'll be encouraging! I've just had my last shot and I'm a hour into my 8 hour sleep hypnosis.... May take a while to drop off but it does carry me through the night. Hope this works out! I'll keep you all posted x
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Cool - good luck. And like I said, one step at a time. Don't worry about the spirituality, steps, sponsors, etc right now (in my opinion). There is no need to do anything except for show up and listen, with an open mind. Good night!
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Originally Posted by JackDsMissus
Ty Yes, I don't really know what to expect! I've read the free books and read a lil on the forum. I don't mind Spirituality. Infact, i believe in a lot of what I read. I guess I just remember AA meetings from TV lol. I'm sure it'll be encouraging! I've just had my last shot and I'm a hour into my 8 hour sleep hypnosis.... May take a while to drop off but it does carry me through the night. Hope this works out! I'll keep you all posted x
Yes, I don't really know what to expect! I've read the free books and read a lil on the forum. I don't mind Spirituality. Infact, i believe in a lot of what I read. I guess I just remember AA meetings from TV lol. I'm sure it'll be encouraging! I've just had my last shot and I'm a hour into my 8 hour sleep hypnosis.... May take a while to drop off but it does carry me through the night. Hope this works out! I'll keep you all posted x
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