Amajorityofone

Excellent!

Don't ask me why but I've got a good feeling about you. Now STAY STRONG!

I'm praying for you as well.

neferkamichael

Abheleus, you are FANTASTIC.

Dee74

I spent a lot of money too Ach - but I gained more than money by getting into recovery...now the money doesn't seem like that much of a big deal, you know?

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Acheleus

I believe I have a chance to recover and I am not taking my life for granted any more. I have been eating too much junk food but right now I am just seeking a sober life, I walk everyday but I figure some bad eating is not so bad considering how much I drank.

Dee I think the balance will be alright one day. Alcohol takes time, energy, money, and spirit. I want to feel good, and sobriety feels good. One day at a time. Thank you for the support. Just reading for me classes until late. Getting my mind back in shape.

Olive1

Ptcapote

Hi Ach, just catching up on your thread. You sound good! Don't stress about the money---it comes and goes but is much more likely to stay when you're sober. What's important is you feeling good and steady in your sobriety.

Just wanted to stop by and say "hello" and that I am cheering for you everyday over here! Have a good Thursday!

Acheleus

Thank you. I am tired and want to sleep but I have to read. I'm good with being alone, and I never had fun meeting people at bars. Thanks for the support. I hope you are doing well too.

Nuudawn

Well you weren't actually "present" now were you. Don't get me wrong, I am not condoning the environment, I'm just saying I didn't do too much "honest" relating with anyone, I was drunk..not present to the moment or the people around me. They were just props in my drunk movie.

Acheleus

Props in my drunk movie exactly... It is odd that alcoholics share so many things. A non alcoholic would never be able to say what Nuudawn said. I still 150 pages to read and I am seeing my doctor in the morning. I will tell him my anxiety med seems to work but that my depression and insecurity are pretty intense. Tomorrow is a new day to work and go to a meeting. My students laughed again today at stuff I said, I was not trying to be funny. Thanks again Nuudawn for cutting through my bs. Now I can be present and really meet someone one day. Some human affection would be nice, but I know girls do not like sad drunks. Going to get a little sleep then finish reading.

Nuudawn

lol..no thank you Acheleus! I will remember you said that when I have moments of doubt about my alcoholism (I had one earlier this evening as a matter of fact)