KathySmith

I guess it kinda hit me today. Came home from work, lit the grill started cleaning up the kitchen and getting dinner stuff out, and wanted to grab a beer.

Then I remembered I stopped drinking. I had a pang of disappointment and started thinking about all the great fall beers, I won't be able to have.

I started thinking justifying thoughts like "I don't actually have a problem, and if I want a beer, it's not bad if I just have 1" I got mad at myself and put it out of my mind. I knew I needed to change my thoughts.

I'm ok, just sad.

least

It's ok to be sad, after all, you're losing a companion. A bad companion, but a companion all the same. It will go away with more sobriety.

Mirage74

Know exactly what you're going through. Hang in there.

stevie88

It gets better believe me...What you were thinking was your alcoholic voice trying to talk you into grabbing that beer....Mine still talks to me now even after 8 months sober....You did well to ignore it...Take care....Steve.

Amajorityofone

I've been there.

It's all a part of the "process."

Remember, all you have to do is get through today and today only.

Hope this helps.

Dee74

me and alcohol was the longest relationship I had in my life, really, Kathy.

It's ok to process that loss, and even feel a bit sad, even after an abusive relationship, y'know?

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Anna

It is sad, and it's a loss and I think we have to mourn the loss.

But, know that there is hope for you to have a sober life.

KathySmith

Thanks everyone, I hope this feeling goes away soon, I really don't like it.

Mirage74

Tomorrow morning the feeling will be gone and you'll be thankful you didn't drink. At least that's my experience. Nights are hard, especially if you're used to drinking.

Acheleus

I hope you feel better soon.

neferkamichael

KathySmith, I just suffered through all of it and 3 years sober now the sadness over not being able to drink has practically vanished. I was worn out diverting my attention away from wanting a drink but it's normal now. I just remember how bad it was when a temptation pops up. It gets easier as the days go by. Rootin for ya.

Dano1975

Just getting going again in my sobriety and I've been feeling the same way. Visit here or go to an AA meeting when you feel like that. Good luck

sunset01

I've had the same feelings Kathy, It's winter here and soon it'll be spring and summer, then the BBQ's etc.. Knowing that I wont be able to sit and relax with a beer with the rest of my friends has me feeling the same way as you.

I read on someone else's post that they make non alcoholic cocktails, and I think....well I can look forward to that, making new and interesting drinks means, a) I will have a drink in my hand and I wont be asked if I want something and b) it's new and interesting something I can share with my friends and not feel totally left out.

I know it's not the same but I think it could be better, because I get to do that knowing that this new sober, more energised, clearer thinking me is here to stay.

kittycat3

It will go away soon, and next time it wont be as bad. There is hot cider to look forward to!!!

Sally3127

Give it some time. It definitely gets better.

gingerrogers

Kathy, I am happy to know I am not alone. The other day I drove around the block to check out a yard sale and went by one of my favorite liquor stores and thought Gee there's where I always park. Oh that's right I don't drink anymore duh!