Feeling weak and sad
Feeling weak and sad
I guess it kinda hit me today. Came home from work, lit the grill started cleaning up the kitchen and getting dinner stuff out, and wanted to grab a beer.
Then I remembered I stopped drinking. I had a pang of disappointment and started thinking about all the great fall beers, I won't be able to have.
I started thinking justifying thoughts like "I don't actually have a problem, and if I want a beer, it's not bad if I just have 1" I got mad at myself and put it out of my mind. I knew I needed to change my thoughts.
I'm ok, just sad.
Then I remembered I stopped drinking. I had a pang of disappointment and started thinking about all the great fall beers, I won't be able to have.
I started thinking justifying thoughts like "I don't actually have a problem, and if I want a beer, it's not bad if I just have 1" I got mad at myself and put it out of my mind. I knew I needed to change my thoughts.
I'm ok, just sad.
It gets better believe me...What you were thinking was your alcoholic voice trying to talk you into grabbing that beer....Mine still talks to me now even after 8 months sober....You did well to ignore it...Take care....Steve.
KathySmith, I just suffered through all of it and 3 years sober now the sadness over not being able to drink has practically vanished. I was worn out diverting my attention away from wanting a drink but it's normal now. I just remember how bad it was when a temptation pops up. It gets easier as the days go by. Rootin for ya.
I've had the same feelings Kathy, It's winter here and soon it'll be spring and summer, then the BBQ's etc.. Knowing that I wont be able to sit and relax with a beer with the rest of my friends has me feeling the same way as you.
I read on someone else's post that they make non alcoholic cocktails, and I think....well I can look forward to that, making new and interesting drinks means, a) I will have a drink in my hand and I wont be asked if I want something and b) it's new and interesting something I can share with my friends and not feel totally left out.
I know it's not the same but I think it could be better, because I get to do that knowing that this new sober, more energised, clearer thinking me is here to stay.
I read on someone else's post that they make non alcoholic cocktails, and I think....well I can look forward to that, making new and interesting drinks means, a) I will have a drink in my hand and I wont be asked if I want something and b) it's new and interesting something I can share with my friends and not feel totally left out.
I know it's not the same but I think it could be better, because I get to do that knowing that this new sober, more energised, clearer thinking me is here to stay.
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Hang in there.
Kathy, I am happy to know I am not alone. The other day I drove around the block to check out a yard sale and went by one of my favorite liquor stores and thought Gee there's where I always park. Oh that's right I don't drink anymore duh!
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