AugustWest11

My back spasms started again They have been my recent trigger .. The pain is unbearable .. Although I see it as "funny" I have been "hiding" for so long that I won't drink if I see the Doc tomorrow .. Not to mention I will not drink on my meds .. It's just when they run out that the problems occur .. I can barely move; can't even function cause the pain is so bad ...But I will press on though .. I just have no real plan and it is starting to bug me

ScottFromWI

So make a plan.

You already have SR so that's a great start. Have you ever tried AA or any of the self-based/secular plans program? Some other things to consider would be counseling, outpatient Detox, etc. The big book is online as well as the text of many of the other plans.

AugustWest11

Thanx Scott .. Not sure where to began to making a plan lol Groups like AA is so not for me ... Actually I have tons of reading material from last time :p Counseling is in the cards .. I see my Regular Doctor Wednesday; so gonna see if I can swing by a counseling place ..

neferkamichael

AugustWest, day 2 is FANTASTIC. Congratulations.

ScottFromWI

Seeing your doc is a good plan. Have you been honest about your drinking in the past or will this be the first visit regarding it?

Bottom line you've got to do something. That's fine if AA isn't for you but you need to then find something else that is. And rather than maybe "swinging by a counseling place" you can call one and make an actual appointment to see a counselor.

Not trying to be harsh, but the ball is in your court at this point. Take it and run with it.

AugustWest11

Not harsh at all, just honest . Doc knows nothing. Hessitant to say anything to her .. I need a new doc. As well lol. But thanx, I got 3 days off to get the ball rolling. Counsler then new doc. Just have to occupy my time for a few days. Thanx again for the kick in the rear.

ScottFromWI

Be completely honest with the doc. They have seen it all, and they've seen it over and over. Nothing you can say will surprise them, believe me. And frankly, if you aren't going to tell them the truth, not sure why you'd bother going anyway. They can't help if you don't tell them what the problem is. And the problem is drinking - it is for all of us. You will most likely be very surprised to find out that doctors view alcoholism as a disease and want to help you overcome it, as well as make sure there hasn't been any damage caused by it.

AugustWest11

Actually I am in sever pain b\c of back issues is why I see her once a month .. I don't trust her; only reason she was my Doc was out of convenience lol Hence the new doc thing . I plan to be 100% honest w\ the counselor\new doc ..

Dee74

I think Scotts right - you need a Dr you can trust and a recovery plan. Don't procrastinate on either.

and buy one of those heating pads you throw into the microwave if you don't have one - they're great for back spasms.

D

AugustWest11

Thanx Dee, too much scar tissue ; so it Burns . I plan to get a new Doc awhile ago anyway. Just not sure where I'm gonna be yet. Hell not even sure I can afford one after all is said & done.

Dee74

There are a lot of free or low cost clinics around - if there's one in your local area you might get some medical advice there?

Free/Low-Cost/Sliding-Scale Clinics
2-1-1 Call Center Search

I hear you on the moving and not sure where you're going to be...but honestly?
I used the same excuses myself.

Things like that should not stop you from seeing a Dr or hitting an AA meeting, man.

the more you put things off the longer you're gonna be in this limbo, AW.

D

AugustWest11

I hear ya Bro. The Dr/counsler will be done before I go back to work thur. Night. As for AA. Doubt ever, I would feel strange having to eat a valium to deal w\ more then 2 people lol when I get cigs I usually bug, unless drinkin' .

Dee74

My bad I misread and thought you were considering using AA.

There are so many programmes out there - most of them have some kind of online meeting thing going on - there are programmes like AVRT that have no meetings at all.

You can do nothing, white knuckle it and be miserable, or drink and be miserable....or try some new things and maybe get to a better place.

up to you, but I know which door I'd pick.

D

AugustWest11

Ohh I have been lookin' into online things. Sorry misunderstood on my Android. I thought about a meeting but I know me, I would back out when I saw people lol..

Acheleus

A counselor helps me understand that I am not my alcoholism. She really helps me see outside of my own head, if that makes sense. I am day 2 as well so I know it sucks to start again, but I am focusing on the present, not the past or future. The people I have met in AA meetings are all very nice.