Day 3 - Easy Does It
Day 3 - Easy Does It
Well today is Day 3 of being sober since my recent relapse on Saturday and I'm not doing so hot. The obsession and compulsion to use is so awful it's not even funny.
And last night, I snuck out of the house and walked 4 miles to the nearest store and got my substance of choice. I walked home only to find out that my mom woke up and saw I was missing. When I went inside she took the drugs and flushed them down the toilet. I was PISSED. Pissed at the fact that I couldn't get high, yet pissed at the fact that I almost ****** up again.
I should be grateful that I didn't get sent to jail on monday for using, as I'm in Drug Court, but instead I sit here feeling sorry for myself and over-thinking my life and how I have to stay sober a whole year to complete drug court and I just need to STOP all the thoughts... live in today, like they say in NA We didn't become addicted in one day, so remember, easy does it. how true that is!
Anyways, I'm seriously considering using right now so someone please talk me out of it!! In the meantime, I shall call my sponsor.
And last night, I snuck out of the house and walked 4 miles to the nearest store and got my substance of choice. I walked home only to find out that my mom woke up and saw I was missing. When I went inside she took the drugs and flushed them down the toilet. I was PISSED. Pissed at the fact that I couldn't get high, yet pissed at the fact that I almost ****** up again.
I should be grateful that I didn't get sent to jail on monday for using, as I'm in Drug Court, but instead I sit here feeling sorry for myself and over-thinking my life and how I have to stay sober a whole year to complete drug court and I just need to STOP all the thoughts... live in today, like they say in NA We didn't become addicted in one day, so remember, easy does it. how true that is!
Anyways, I'm seriously considering using right now so someone please talk me out of it!! In the meantime, I shall call my sponsor.
Give it time,but not all the time in the world.
Good idea to call your sponsor.
The drug 'highs' are very demeaning, also compelling.
Time and the right attitude, that initially may seem very strange...
will help eventually.
Good idea to call your sponsor.
The drug 'highs' are very demeaning, also compelling.
Time and the right attitude, that initially may seem very strange...
will help eventually.
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