kiter

Back to Day 1---what a loser---feel completely beat down and hopeless.
Obviously I don't have the strength or heart to do what many of you have done.

roberooski

NOT A LOSER! A FIGHTER!!!

Take another step forward....then another...and keep going! It's easier to put yourself down than it is to pick yourself up....pick ONE REASON to do so and start there!

Good luck!

soberhawk

I think many have gone back to day 1 at some point, I have at least.

It is not going to happen not though.

I am just looking forward and taking it one day at the time,

kiter

Thank you so much- tearing up right now- embarassing- but your reply meant so much--makes me feel like I am so alone in this nightmare

least

You are not alone! We are here with you, encouraging you to try again.

VioletMae

I have been there, a few times, but it's never too late to start afresh. I'm on day 5 now and more determined than ever. You are here, that's the important think, still trying, asking for help and moving towards the solution. Keep going! Sending lots of love x

JumpnOn2

Ur not alone!!!! Sounds like you slipped so regain your balance and move forward... with ur head up. U had enough strength to try, maybe ur confidence is shook a little . That will come back too . Keep moving forward!!

whiskeyman

you are most definelty alone. I thihnk we have all felt EXACTLY like that.
did something specific set you off. Do the opposite and never give in.
You are stronger than that.
Nothing and no one is worth your sobriety.

alphaomega

I quite 4995 times before it stuck.

That's not an exaggeration.

You are not alone. You are not a loser. You have a disease.

Do you think people with diabetes are losers ? Cancer ? Cerebral palsy ?

Well, neither are you.

Delilah1

I am back to day one as well, and it is far from my first day one. It took me a lot longer than you to get back on here again!!

Hevyn

Losers walk off, hanging their heads, and stop trying. This is not you kiter - you're back to give it another shot.

Change4good

You are back here, at it again. In my book, that makes you a winner.

driftedsoul

Right back to day one with you. Know how your feeling but makong the choice to start day one over again than not is the better choice we can make.

soberclover

I think you are brave and courageous for being back here! I think people who are on the recovery journey be it day 1 or 10,000 are amazing!

Alex41

Your no loser. Your back so that makes you a fighter in my opinion!! You have got through today, so day 1 is nearly over. Roll on day two and keep moving forward.

439trish

you haven't given up on quitting because you are here telling us and that is what matters most, YOU HAVEN'T GIVEN UP.

You can do this!! and you are in good company here at SR

best regards...

YoungAndClean

Ive had hundreds of day 1's and i'm 28 years old. Now I have 12 days and have hope because unlike before, I'm working my program of recovery differently then ever before. I know for myself, I'd have hundreds more Day 1's if I kept buying into the lie that I could save myself if only.....

TKS

You started becoming a winner-in-training by starting this thread.

elderine

Well done for trying again! I'm on day 1 again too. It's so important that we keep coming back.

kiter

Hello all,
I have been off line for a few days, so sorry for the delayed response, and first of all would like to thank you all SOOO much for your support and kind words. You are all awesome!

Unhappily, off-line means being at a friend's cottage where I have had drinking weekends with all my friends since I was 18.

I did drink, but happily kept it under control, but now my AV is telling me: "see- you can do it!"

Deep down I know that I CAN'T do it and sooner or later my drinking will be out of control again- but I am struggling to get back to that line of thinking and commitment to my sobriety.

I'd love to hear advice from any of you as to how I might get back there without having to get to another crisis point again...

Funny- as I write this, I guess my advice to myself would be to simply remember the multiple crisis points that I have lived through in the past, and why on earth would this attempt at moderation be any different?!

Once again, would be so grateful for any thoughts/advice.

Thanks xoxoxo