Bravegirl

Well I Made It A Whole 3 Days Without Drinking. I Began Rationalizing With Myself And Decided I Dont Have A Problem. Well You All Know How That Turned Out. Two Bottles Of Wine Last night And A Hang Over This Morning. I Dont Like Myself Very Much Right Now!

trident

I always start rationalizing with myself - as soon as I feel better, I start thinking that I can totally handle a drink or two. Yeah, right. Just tell that voice to shut up - don't even rationalize.

(If you follow AVRT, remember the R stands for recognize, not rationalize, so just recognize it and don't even reply back to the voice in your head)

Tamerua

It is amazing how we do that to ourselves... I recommend journaling just how awful you feel so that you can remember and go back when that "you're totally normal!" voice comes back.

Eleni58

Don't beat yourself up. Just learn from this slip. Get back on the horse and start riding again down the road of sobriety!

soberhawk

I do recognize that line of thought.

I hope I am not buying that anymore.

But it has though taken me years to see the absurdity in convincing my self that it can be managed. I am apparently embarrassing slow at learning.

PetraD

Bravegirl - did you just recently decide to try to quit drinking? I just did a similar thing. Thought I would see how long I could go without drinking. Made it three nights, then told myself I didn't really want to try right now, bought a bottle of wine and drank most of it on the fourth night.

PetraD

Trident - I am also a Colorado Mom.

Nuudawn

You know it's interesting how our minds get so hijacked by addiction that we can convince ourselves we don't have a problem..despite overwhelming evidence. I remember that stage..and I drank beyond it. I knew I had a problem and kept on drinking anyway. I popped into a few AA meetings over 20 years ago after drinking to blackout on weekend binges. I have just over 2 months of sobriety and I'm pretty much lovin' it.

I WISH I'd had the knowledge and insight...and well "ovaries" to have done my life real and head on. If I could turn back time, I would have shown up sober for the first half of my life. Who knows what I could've achieved.

I wish you sobriety..as the gift it is..it is not a deprivation. It is jam packed with possibility.

Dee74

Many of us don;t get this first off Bravegirl.
pick yourself up and run at that thing again

You can do this

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PippoRossi

Hey, BraveGirl. Hang in there.

Acheleus

Hope you get back up and learn from the slip. You are not your alcoholism!

12skiptomylue

Been there.... It helps to recognize that your head is not your friend and can be the biggest liar of all sometimes. Off topic, but do you know about bravegirlsclub? Your username made me think of it.