Diary of a Mad Cow
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Your description of how you felt sounds so much like
The posts I've read about alcoholic withdrawal. I'm not sure it was the salad, cow...I think you are going into withdrawal when you go a day or two without the booze and then you don't like that at all so you give yourself permission to drink to get rid of the horrible symptoms of withdrawal.
How would you feel about an inpatient detox?
Wishing and hoping so much for good things for you and sobriety.
How would you feel about an inpatient detox?
Wishing and hoping so much for good things for you and sobriety.
Woe is Moo.
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Happy Now, I has go up to 5 days sober without physical "withdrawal" symptom. And I has have similar reactions when try to eat salad before or other delicious thing like garlic, onion, ginger, peppers, spices. I kind of old hand at gauging difference between substance symptoms and food/smell/light reaction symptoms.
Quantity I drinking now does not require medical detox. Is like 1-2 bottle wine every other day. Is a lot, but not need supervisions. Here is true story: I go to meeting while ago and was start to tell my story and say how much I drinking and lady next to me goes "Wow, if I could just drink that much, I wouldn't even be here!" And bunch of them was nodding they heads! I was like, "Listen bitches, I happen to already has blown out my f*cking brain and other organs from drug and alcohols, so for me, that is lot, okay? Sure, is not my 30 freaking shot a night hey day, but is still big problem! Believe me, I has try to go more, but end up in hospital, so I maxing out here, okay? We good? Jesus!" --I not say this in exactly those words, of course, being polite gentle soul that I is, but was big turn off to me for meetings.
PS. Anybody get my booking # joke, or is I only 80's chick here!
Quantity I drinking now does not require medical detox. Is like 1-2 bottle wine every other day. Is a lot, but not need supervisions. Here is true story: I go to meeting while ago and was start to tell my story and say how much I drinking and lady next to me goes "Wow, if I could just drink that much, I wouldn't even be here!" And bunch of them was nodding they heads! I was like, "Listen bitches, I happen to already has blown out my f*cking brain and other organs from drug and alcohols, so for me, that is lot, okay? Sure, is not my 30 freaking shot a night hey day, but is still big problem! Believe me, I has try to go more, but end up in hospital, so I maxing out here, okay? We good? Jesus!" --I not say this in exactly those words, of course, being polite gentle soul that I is, but was big turn off to me for meetings.
PS. Anybody get my booking # joke, or is I only 80's chick here!
Woe is Moo.
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Excitotoxins, yes, Double B! Thank you for chiming in. Yes, is very hard to eat around them and for me even supposed benign chemicals is problem. But you total right, of course, that destroying my myelin sheath not helping. Is very few foods that is 'safe' food for me at this point, so if you has suggestion or resource, I all ears.
Its a cold and its a broken hallelujah.
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I has a secret. Sometimes when I'm feeling kinda sad, I come here and re-read this entire thread. Because it makes me happy. And, it's more entertaining than the Kardashians.
But not more than Homey Boo Boo.
But not more than Homey Boo Boo.
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Originally Posted by jaynie04 
SO good to know I can still laugh this hard stone sober. Thanks guys!
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You know, after I post ALLEGED unlawful link, I has some regret. Because I feel it expose me, and I really not at all wish to become "sobriety class clown." Plus also, I total get busted by Sheriff D and now has SR rap sheet. But tonight lift my spirit. And I think, you know, fact is, I comic at heart, and, I addict at heart, and both of those is me, and both of those has to get sober. I think is still okay to be silly sometime when you tragic inside. Lot of writers big fear is that they no can write any more when they sober, and this has certainly occur for me in total dead spaces when I try to give up addictions and not manage to get through to ... whatever. Is maybe like that for everybody, no matter profession. Although I not really ever hear of accountant hasing brilliant drug fueled accounting session. Anyway, we is who we is, yes? We can maybe be somebody new tomorrow, but we has to start where we is. And who I is, is still on mission to sobriety.
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Cow, I think you have to look at something. You have the ability to draw people together, make them feel comfortable and your humor comes from a very deep place. You mention that you understand the gravity of what we are all dealing with often, it shows. You have a way of communicating what you are going through that makes everyone want the absolute best for you. You are endearing.
Yes, comic, addict....guess what, all of you adds up to a pretty amazing equation!
Yes, comic, addict....guess what, all of you adds up to a pretty amazing equation!
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Dear Cow, you are brilliant, funny, caring
And so many of us here genuinely love your spirit. But you are hurting and dying from the alcoholism. If you keep drinking you will die. That's all I know. Please find a way to sobriety. We are all rooting for you!
Its a cold and its a broken hallelujah.
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Hi buddy - I read some of your stuff on FB. You were right about the disclaimer. 
I saw so much pain and anger in your writing there it's almost a do it yourself therapy session. It's very descriptive of you, (although well hidden behind a facade of distasteful jokes and stuffed animals). As entertainers, our greatest gifts come from our darkest places. I've been asked, "Where does that EVEN come from ?" when I get off the stage. My answer is a stock one "You don't want to begin to know."
You do you. If that's what dispels the demons, brings them to light, go on with ya bad self. Writers gotta write. And like my pal PTC says, haters gonna hate.
But when i read that i thought - jesus, hasnt she suffered enough ?
You have to make your choice, once and for all, are you gonna get busy dying or get busy living ?
It's sh*t or get off the pot time.
XO AO
I saw so much pain and anger in your writing there it's almost a do it yourself therapy session. It's very descriptive of you, (although well hidden behind a facade of distasteful jokes and stuffed animals). As entertainers, our greatest gifts come from our darkest places. I've been asked, "Where does that EVEN come from ?" when I get off the stage. My answer is a stock one "You don't want to begin to know."
You do you. If that's what dispels the demons, brings them to light, go on with ya bad self. Writers gotta write. And like my pal PTC says, haters gonna hate.
But when i read that i thought - jesus, hasnt she suffered enough ?
You have to make your choice, once and for all, are you gonna get busy dying or get busy living ?
It's sh*t or get off the pot time.
XO AO
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