Day 4 and angry
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Day 4 and angry
Had first day of training today and I hate it, I do not like the school I am in and I just want a beer and a cigarette. Feeling scared and all alone. I hate my school and the people there, they are happy and normal. This sucks.
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hey there. i'm new to this forum and new to not drinking. its so hard! I had a fight with mum yesterday and so so wanted a drink.
I've been to some aa meetings and their advice was "don't pick up" .... hard when the craving feels like a physical need.
I guess you need to keep yourself busy, try to relax ... music? computer games? xbox?
and remember.... most people put on a happy face, not all of those people are perfect and happy, in fact most aren't.
I've been to some aa meetings and their advice was "don't pick up" .... hard when the craving feels like a physical need.
I guess you need to keep yourself busy, try to relax ... music? computer games? xbox?
and remember.... most people put on a happy face, not all of those people are perfect and happy, in fact most aren't.
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Hi Friend. Well, you have choices to make here. If you do use the chances of your staying in a horrible mental place are pretty good. Are you taking the meds Acheleus?
Stay calm and stay motivated Acheleus. If you do choose to do anything let it be a cigarette. This would not create the major emotional place that you find yourself in everytime you drink.
Stay on here tonight.
Stay calm and stay motivated Acheleus. If you do choose to do anything let it be a cigarette. This would not create the major emotional place that you find yourself in everytime you drink.
Stay on here tonight.
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Just remember the reasons why you want to quit in the first place. Keep that front of mind. All you have to do is not drink just for today. Every day it gets easier. ask yourself is it worth getting back on it for a temporary fix or you can work on a long term solution. Every day without getting on it is a win. We can do it.
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I know. But after training today the guys were like oh let us all go out beer drinking Thursday, so come Thursday I will look like an *******, but I will tell them I do not drink anymore. It just hurts to be around people who clearly have their **** together and are happy. It makes me sick how happy they all seem, but maybe I will feel better soon. I hope the anxiety med starts working. Gonna eat now.
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I know most people do put on a happy face, I just feel so inadequate around them, but I am in the program so I need to relax. I took a walk last night and that helped. Thank you for the reasonable voices guys.
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I always have my happy face on but living with an alcoholic when I dont drink is not the happiest. You never know whats behind someone elses closed door. Be strong. I go out with a lot of friends who are alcoholics & they never pressure me. If they are really your friends they would understand. I sit at the bar & watch everyone else and how they are going to feel in the morning. You can still have fun and be sober
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I just feel like a huge POS all the time. My counselor says I look normal and act normal, but inside I feel like dirt. Trying to work on that and making sobriety my number one priority. Alcohol I think contributed to me feeling like a no one because people don't like being around a drunk. Anyway, moving forward.
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Originally Posted by Acheleus 
I just feel like a huge POS all the time. My counselor says I look normal and act normal, but inside I feel like dirt. Trying to work on that and making sobriety my number one priority. Alcohol I think contributed to me feeling like a no one because people don't like being around a drunk. Anyway, moving forward.
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