Day 4 and angry
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Just got back from day 2 of training, or bootcamp as it is called, have some homework to do but I am going to rest a little while. I think my meds are working bc I was very talkative and more outgoing today. Day5 of no drinking.
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being single doesn't make you alone and ugly Ach. Thats just your negative self talk acting up.
No need to tell me, but can you think of some positives about yourself, instead?
You're a good person - keep your head up.
D
No need to tell me, but can you think of some positives about yourself, instead?
You're a good person - keep your head up.
D
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I know I have positive qualities but I compare myself to other people in my class and feel they are smarter and stronger than me. A part of me kind of wants to give up and hide by myself. I got through day 5 and I am going for a long walk then doing homework. I am just tired of hating my life and feeling inadequate. Having friends would help but other people in my class do not like me. I just want my brain and body to heal from the alcohol abuse. I relapsed because I feel normal when I have 4 beers, I feel comfortable and stable. That is why this is so hard for me.
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Yes I have been to some. The good thing about school is I do not get bored. I want to reward myself with fast food tonight but I feel scared to gain weight, but it does help me stay sober. I think I will have to give in to junk food for a little while, I did take a long walk tonight though. I went to AA a few nights ago. Exercise really helps me think more positively.
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