Day 14
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Day 14
Hi All,
I haven't been around much recently but am on Day 14 and just wanted to share. I was able to take my last drink a few days before my son turned 1 and am feeling great about that. I find myself daydreaming that perhaps I will be able to one day tell my son that I haven't had a drink since he was 11 months old but pull my head back down to today.
The normal ups and downs, the normal 'well....maybe' thoughts, and I have to remember it's pretty normal for me to feel exhausted for the first several weeks/months. I used to think 'if I feel this tired not drinking...then maybe I should just drink and not be tired.' That doesn't work so well. Feeling strong yet cautious and doing my best to reflect on the changes going on. Best wishes to all of you and your sobriety.
I haven't been around much recently but am on Day 14 and just wanted to share. I was able to take my last drink a few days before my son turned 1 and am feeling great about that. I find myself daydreaming that perhaps I will be able to one day tell my son that I haven't had a drink since he was 11 months old but pull my head back down to today.
The normal ups and downs, the normal 'well....maybe' thoughts, and I have to remember it's pretty normal for me to feel exhausted for the first several weeks/months. I used to think 'if I feel this tired not drinking...then maybe I should just drink and not be tired.' That doesn't work so well. Feeling strong yet cautious and doing my best to reflect on the changes going on. Best wishes to all of you and your sobriety.
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I am so drunk right now. I really wanted to stay sober but I didn't.
I joined this site 1 year ago today. I will die if I keep drinking.
and yet I choose to keep drinking.
tomorrow is a new day and I've lived 2012 of those.
I joined this site 1 year ago today. I will die if I keep drinking.
and yet I choose to keep drinking.
tomorrow is a new day and I've lived 2012 of those.
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Riverfriend, here you have an opportunity to learn and grow. Take it with both hands and run with it 
It's ok. I learned lots from my slips. Most recently I learned that I needed to be taking B vitamins to combat the intense fatigue in early sobriety. It's helped me immensely this time round.
You can do this, we're all here for you.
It's ok. I learned lots from my slips. Most recently I learned that I needed to be taking B vitamins to combat the intense fatigue in early sobriety. It's helped me immensely this time round.
You can do this, we're all here for you.
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Thanks so much for the kind and encouraging responses.....truly appreciate it folks. I am on Day 6 now. Woke up and took the day off to get my mental stuff in line, got back to a meeting and am 100% committed this time. I don't know how to explain it but I feel 100% done with drinking and am willing to go to just about any length to not pick up a drink again. My sobriety date is now 8/8/13 and I wonder if it's a coincidence that my favorite number is 88 (a weird number that's popped up spiritually for me many times in my life). I even have 88 tattooed on my leg....so it's a very strong date for me. Keep on keeping on. Cheers folks and thanks again. It means a lot (and I got the B vitamins Butterfly).
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Day 14 (again). I pray that this is a stronger day 14 for me and will go to a meeting on lunch for extra support. Things haven't been too hard....and that makes me nervous but I really feel like I've made a solid decision even it it took a full year to come back full circle.
I was thinking about relapses last night and whether I should ever drink again (not a thought I should be entertaining at this early date). I remember after being sober nearly two years I often thought 'why would I ever drink again?' I then made the decision to drink again with the idea that 'it will be a one time thing and I can control it this time around.' Within a couple of weeks I was back to daily drinking and it continued for another 4 years before I was back trying again and struggling to stop. Alcoholism is a part of me and I accept that. I'm finding a new healthy love for myself and acceptance of all of me, good and bad. Good luck today folks and thanks for the wise words and encouragement this past year.
I was thinking about relapses last night and whether I should ever drink again (not a thought I should be entertaining at this early date). I remember after being sober nearly two years I often thought 'why would I ever drink again?' I then made the decision to drink again with the idea that 'it will be a one time thing and I can control it this time around.' Within a couple of weeks I was back to daily drinking and it continued for another 4 years before I was back trying again and struggling to stop. Alcoholism is a part of me and I accept that. I'm finding a new healthy love for myself and acceptance of all of me, good and bad. Good luck today folks and thanks for the wise words and encouragement this past year.
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