niijikwe

In a positive way!

Last month I was like- I have PMS, damn do I deserve a drink or 10 tonight.
Now I felt like, WHEEWH!! I better not complicate PMS with booze!

Last month-- I had a hard day, I need to relax . With booze of course.
Now-- I had a hard day, theres no way Im worsening that by drinking and waking up ashamed and full of panic.

My son ( he's 21) is over for the night, we'll have a few for the fun of it.
Now- My sons over! Im so glad theres no drinking going on.

AugustWest11

Yea I was justifying my drinking w\ I am in constant pain or I work hard at night I deserve it constantly .. It still creeps up on me .. I just tend to fight through it .. Great on the now part By the Way

visch1

Good on ya! Each day can be a good recovery day when we work on it and get our thinking aligned with sobriety for the long range goal. Some days are easier but hay that's always been what lifes about. At times in the beginning I mostly thought of things I could associate with drinking then I learned to think of not drinking almost automatically. BE WELL

least

I like your new attitude.

DrunkenBob

Love it!

Something I will need to work on for a while.

Hawkermw

Every recovery day to me is something that is so awesome that I wake up with a smile. But you are right about the association. That part irritates me. It doesn't make me want to drink, it just irritates me that an otherwise great day, moment, thought etc. has to have that ugly creature painting its strokes over it. I move on though and it just makes me that much stronger.

thekl0wn

I hear ya! Always enjoy hearing the justifications. It's just so much simpler without it.

MsJax

That's a really good way to justify niijikwe . Good for you!

hellofriends

you can do it!

Bruce292

Oh yeah. I can relate! It's hot out tonight and there's a rare *feeling* in the air. I should really be f-ed up so I can really appreciate it. That's what my brain was saying when I went for a walk this evening. It's that side of me that lies. I finally decided that if I've already noticed something special about tonight then getting wasted won't make me appreciate it more. It'll just make me wake up with my head feeling like a bag of wet concrete with pitchforks in my stomach. No thanks!