Here we go.
Here we go.
To articulate my gratitude for the last sober 8 days is hardly adequate for the way I that I am starting to feel now. I am watching the shackles fall off with each passing day.
Has it been a cakewalk ? Hell no. But I ain't complaining.
There are many that haven't been afford my gift.
I have a challenging next few days ahead of me. Emotionally gutting as I step into uncharted territory with cutting the cord from my daughter who is learning how her wings work.
But rather than whine about how I have to face this life sober, I'm on my knees for the opportunity.
F alcohol and all the bull corn that it brings with it.
I'm learning how to use my wings too.
Has it been a cakewalk ? Hell no. But I ain't complaining.
There are many that haven't been afford my gift.
I have a challenging next few days ahead of me. Emotionally gutting as I step into uncharted territory with cutting the cord from my daughter who is learning how her wings work.
But rather than whine about how I have to face this life sober, I'm on my knees for the opportunity.
F alcohol and all the bull corn that it brings with it.
I'm learning how to use my wings too.
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Crikey..those wings takes some work to haul out of the top of our arse don't they? They're pretty flimsy yet with tender structure. But they're there. Just gotta dust off the damn cobwebs and skit off some shite..straighten 'em out and give 'em a little sun and air. We'll be flying strong in no time : )
Crikey..those wings takes some work to haul out of the top of our arse don't they? They're pretty flimsy yet with tender structure. But they're there. Just gotta dust off the damn cobwebs and skit off some shite..straighten 'em out and give 'em a little sun and air. We'll be flying strong in no time : )
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What a lovely post, thanks.
I think gratitude is something many of us tend to forget, on this journey.
Speaking for myself, it's all too easy to fall into a pit of bitter self -centredness.
Thank you for reminding me about the beauty of expressing gratitude...
I can't believe it. I made it day one of this experience without a drink. I though about having a cigarette and then I thought nope. Not doing that either.
There was I point where the fight to not give in to one of about 40,000 crave waves today, descended upon me so fast I barely had a second to think it through. I was literally dizzy and felt like my head was detaching from my body and starting to float away. I looked at my husband and while the whole room was spinning said "Who needs a drink ? I feel totally wasted and I hate this feeling ?".
I don't know what came over me other than emotion. But. Gheesh.
Phew.
There was I point where the fight to not give in to one of about 40,000 crave waves today, descended upon me so fast I barely had a second to think it through. I was literally dizzy and felt like my head was detaching from my body and starting to float away. I looked at my husband and while the whole room was spinning said "Who needs a drink ? I feel totally wasted and I hate this feeling ?".
I don't know what came over me other than emotion. But. Gheesh.
Phew.
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