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Walked on the beach and swam a little then had a nap. Going to eat now. Feel much better at home with family and not totally alone all the time. Exercising and eating right right helped me a lot. Thank you guys, maybe worrying less about total days is better.
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Glad you are feeling better after the beach and eating some good food. But just a bit concerned about you being there with family... If it's your Dad you are with, going on what you've said about him being unsupportive before... Well, just be careful.
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He just does not understand how serious it is. It is not fun being around him when he is drunk. I am alone most of the day but I had to get away from where I was, I felt scared to even go grocery shopping. I did have water at a bar today while he drank, but I cannot go back in there, but he has friends so. Stupid to go in a bar, I know, my dad drinks every day.
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Well... I guess you know if you can handle being around him or not... I hear what you are saying about not feeling ok where you were living... All I can say is please be careful and mindful of your emotions right now... And leave if/when you have to.
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I have had trouble sleeping and my moods fluctuate a lot, sometimes I want to cry because I miss my ex and her family even though they did not like me. Not really sure what to do or where to go. Maybe I can go somewhere I have never been before and try to go to a nice museum or something. Although I did feel happy today. Lots of fear and confusion. Just happy to be sober today.
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You know Acheleus, I may not look to much in the future but I always think about tomorrow too. I get up everyday and try very hard to do my best. Sometimes life doesn't work with me on that. Then I think about what I want my tomorrow to be if today is a tough one. If I drink, I know exactly what tomorrow will be. It won't be pretty.
I guess I do the two day method. If I think in twos the number doubles up faster anyway.
The thing I hate most about addiction is how it turns us against ourselves. I hate that. The self loathing is a ring of hell I would wish on no one. You may not love yourself all that much right now but show yourself some compassion. If you hate anything, you hate that damn alcohol that has done this to you and a whole lot of other people including me, including your Dad. It did it. I hate it. I will give it no more. It has taken more than its fair share from good people. It can go f itself.
There is a blessing in all this pain. There will be a day you will come to know it when you push through it.
I guess I do the two day method. If I think in twos the number doubles up faster anyway.
The thing I hate most about addiction is how it turns us against ourselves. I hate that. The self loathing is a ring of hell I would wish on no one. You may not love yourself all that much right now but show yourself some compassion. If you hate anything, you hate that damn alcohol that has done this to you and a whole lot of other people including me, including your Dad. It did it. I hate it. I will give it no more. It has taken more than its fair share from good people. It can go f itself.
There is a blessing in all this pain. There will be a day you will come to know it when you push through it.
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