3 Months
3 Months
I have put some pretty long stretches of sobriety together in the past but something has always been missing, but these 3 months have really been special for me. I guess I needed to go through what I went through to become humble enough to reach out for help like I never have before. I have knocked down the walls around me and let other people in. I have started to take an honest look at myself and my shortcomings . I have taken suggestions and followed directions from people that know more than me. Just admitting that others know more than me has been a big step. I no longer take my sobriety or my life for granted and I am grateful for every sober day. Life hasn't gotten easier but it has gotten much better.
For those that are new to sobriety or are considering getting sober, here are the reasons I am sober today:
Not picking up a drink no matter what
THE program of AA
The fellowship of AA
Finding a power greater than myself
My sponsor
Accepting help from other people
SR and the people here
Honesty
Open mindedness
Willingness
Becoming teachable
Helping others
I'm sure there are more reasons but those are the ones off of the top of my head. As you can see I have had to change a great deal of my thinking to get sober, and I will have to continue doing that to stay sober. Getting sober is NOT easy, but the rewards are worth it. What I get out of sobriety is directly proportional to what I put into it.
Thank you SR for being here, this place has played a big part in keeping me sober.
For those that are new to sobriety or are considering getting sober, here are the reasons I am sober today:
Not picking up a drink no matter what
THE program of AA
The fellowship of AA
Finding a power greater than myself
My sponsor
Accepting help from other people
SR and the people here
Honesty
Open mindedness
Willingness
Becoming teachable
Helping others
I'm sure there are more reasons but those are the ones off of the top of my head. As you can see I have had to change a great deal of my thinking to get sober, and I will have to continue doing that to stay sober. Getting sober is NOT easy, but the rewards are worth it. What I get out of sobriety is directly proportional to what I put into it.
Thank you SR for being here, this place has played a big part in keeping me sober.
Thanks for your guys support for me and all of the others you help. I haven't been around quite as much this week as I have been feverishly putting my 4th step inventory together. I'm not sure if it will be ready for showtime tomorrow but my sponsor is not expecting the finished product anyway. This stuff is hard LOL. My mind is much right now. But I've gotten more done in the last week than I have in the last 14 years.
Now that I have got all of those resentments stirred up and bubbling to the top I need to dump them soon. I see my sponsor tomorrow and I hope he will allow me to lighten the load at least somewhat.
BTW ya'll are awesome!
Now that I have got all of those resentments stirred up and bubbling to the top I need to dump them soon. I see my sponsor tomorrow and I hope he will allow me to lighten the load at least somewhat.
BTW ya'll are awesome!
3 months is AWESOME! And a great post.
Step 4 was one that I had very mixed feelings on... When I started, I struggled a bit, but I talked to a few guys and they helped me get in the right mindset and gave me some pointers. All that resentment that was stirred up in step 4 is worth it getting started on step 5. I had my doubts when I was discussing it with my sponsor before I started on it, but holy crap, in that open, honest, and sharing discussion, I immediately started to feel some relief.
In step 4, I discovered I wasn't as easygoing and nonchalant as I portray myself. I had a ton of resentments towards people. "Good" people, "bad" people, "middle" people, etc. Enough of a resent-list that we only made it through about 25% of it last night, but it feels good, and it's making me want more and has already started affecting me in a very positive way.
Keep up the great work, man!
Step 4 was one that I had very mixed feelings on... When I started, I struggled a bit, but I talked to a few guys and they helped me get in the right mindset and gave me some pointers. All that resentment that was stirred up in step 4 is worth it getting started on step 5. I had my doubts when I was discussing it with my sponsor before I started on it, but holy crap, in that open, honest, and sharing discussion, I immediately started to feel some relief.
In step 4, I discovered I wasn't as easygoing and nonchalant as I portray myself. I had a ton of resentments towards people. "Good" people, "bad" people, "middle" people, etc. Enough of a resent-list that we only made it through about 25% of it last night, but it feels good, and it's making me want more and has already started affecting me in a very positive way.
Keep up the great work, man!
Dawn it' been my pleasure to get to trudge down the road of happy destiny side my side with you. Reading your posts lately I have come to realize that you are aren't nearly as sick as I thought your were.
I keed, I keed.
Going to that music fest took some large ones and I'm so glad you had some fun and grew in the process. I'm not sure I could have done that yet, but after seeing you do it it gives me hope that my time for "putting it out there" is coming soon.
Time for my head to hit the pillow. I still have to do my fears list and my sex conduct list before I meet my sponsor tomorrow evening. I also have to get my car inspected and re-registered...fun fun.
Night all!
I keed, I keed.
Going to that music fest took some large ones and I'm so glad you had some fun and grew in the process. I'm not sure I could have done that yet, but after seeing you do it it gives me hope that my time for "putting it out there" is coming soon.
Time for my head to hit the pillow. I still have to do my fears list and my sex conduct list before I meet my sponsor tomorrow evening. I also have to get my car inspected and re-registered...fun fun.
Night all!
Congrats on 3 months!
I am working on my 4th step too so I am right were you are. I found writing my resentments down has made me angry to the point I want to crumble the worksheet and chuck it across the room. I take a break, breath a little and keep going.
I am working on my 4th step too so I am right were you are. I found writing my resentments down has made me angry to the point I want to crumble the worksheet and chuck it across the room. I take a break, breath a little and keep going.
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