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I am new on day one of sobriety yet again. This time I am ready to start. I haven't even thought of a forum. My life is busy and I still manage to drink lots. How I don't get it. I started drinking as a teenager Im 30 now. I stopped drinking around the age of 18 and never picked up a drink other than the occasional holiday beer for 9 years. Traumatic events ensued around the age of 26 and I started experimenting within 6 months with alcohol again. It reached heightened proportions by the time I was 28 and I hardly want to remember the rest even if I can. I ended up in detox in December after a night of drinking 16-16 ounce beers. I am a small framed woman 5'5 130lbs. I usually drink every other night at least a bottle of wine chased down by a few beers. It is less than last year but it is still raging alcoholic proportions. I no longer throw up with hangovers I just have liver pain some shakes chronic fatigue and all the other bull*** that goes along with being hungover. 4 weeks ago I got into an accident not alcohol related. I want to get off this train. Since the beginning of the year I have had about 3, 3 week stints of not drinking but that is not sobriety. Im sick of this life. I want support but have realized Im the only one who can help myself I am the only one who has to drink the crap. Ive done AA but never committed to it. Maybe im being a snob but it hasn't rung my bell. I am not desperate for AA. I started a relationship with a therapist recently. There are just a few things about AA I cant wrap my brain around Im willing to do whatever it takes and I know I have plenty of irrational thinking behaviors I need to work through. So here's my start. Day one of true coming out of the closet and hoping to find the answers I need to beat this thing and live a peaceful, rested, healthy life.
I am new on day one of sobriety yet again. This time I am ready to start. I haven't even thought of a forum. My life is busy and I still manage to drink lots. How I don't get it. I started drinking as a teenager Im 30 now. I stopped drinking around the age of 18 and never picked up a drink other than the occasional holiday beer for 9 years. Traumatic events ensued around the age of 26 and I started experimenting within 6 months with alcohol again. It reached heightened proportions by the time I was 28 and I hardly want to remember the rest even if I can. I ended up in detox in December after a night of drinking 16-16 ounce beers. I am a small framed woman 5'5 130lbs. I usually drink every other night at least a bottle of wine chased down by a few beers. It is less than last year but it is still raging alcoholic proportions. I no longer throw up with hangovers I just have liver pain some shakes chronic fatigue and all the other bull*** that goes along with being hungover. 4 weeks ago I got into an accident not alcohol related. I want to get off this train. Since the beginning of the year I have had about 3, 3 week stints of not drinking but that is not sobriety. Im sick of this life. I want support but have realized Im the only one who can help myself I am the only one who has to drink the crap. Ive done AA but never committed to it. Maybe im being a snob but it hasn't rung my bell. I am not desperate for AA. I started a relationship with a therapist recently. There are just a few things about AA I cant wrap my brain around Im willing to do whatever it takes and I know I have plenty of irrational thinking behaviors I need to work through. So here's my start. Day one of true coming out of the closet and hoping to find the answers I need to beat this thing and live a peaceful, rested, healthy life.
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welcome oceantornado 
You'll find a lot of people exploring a variety of different approaches here.
If you feel AA is not your thing, ok - I'm not in AA either - but I really urge you to find out what is 'your thing'
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You'll find a lot of people exploring a variety of different approaches here.
If you feel AA is not your thing, ok - I'm not in AA either - but I really urge you to find out what is 'your thing'
D
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Welcome Oceantornado,
It sounds like perhaps this is the first time that you are totally committed to abstinence? For me, that made the difference. Before that, I would try to moderate, but would always end up back where I started. You might want to look into AVRT. This forum is also very good for getting and giving support.
It sounds like perhaps this is the first time that you are totally committed to abstinence? For me, that made the difference. Before that, I would try to moderate, but would always end up back where I started. You might want to look into AVRT. This forum is also very good for getting and giving support.
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Welcome! AA wasn't my thing either..but I'm pretty sure this place is. I am eternally grateful for the existence of AA and they get a whole lotta things right...community and keeping connected to your sobriety..but I had more questions than I could not find answers for. I am so eternally grateful there are MORE answers than just AA these days. Even 7 years ago it seemed like the only hope...and that kind of hurt. Since I didn't resonate with AA..I was again lost and alone...and THAT hurts your sobriety.
Nevertheless, you do need some strategies...and this place is one of mine.
Nevertheless, you do need some strategies...and this place is one of mine.
to SR! You've come to a very supportive place.
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