thereallucyd

Hi everyone... today I started my new lifestyle. Last week I admitted to being an alcoholic (strange how many rock bottoms it takes to get over that huge, initial hurdle) I'm a little scared to be honest - sobriety seems to be this big, looming spectre. But I am choosing to view it with excitement! Admittedly I have been doing a lot of celebrity blog trawling hunting for success stories - a guilty habit of mine... But I look for the success stories. It makes it less frightening. I am looking forward to living a life free of guilt, lies, hiding... and a life where I can love other people and potentially even learn to love myself (something that up until now I never dreamed to be possible!) Anyway, I just thought I'd check in. Imagine I'll be spending quite a bit of time here now! I like it already.

ippochick

welcome!

this place is fantastic. enjoy the support you'll have here. it changes lives.

yoohoo

Congratulations. This site has helped keep me sober today.

thereallucyd

That's so encouraging to hear! Are you also involved in outside support networks ie AA or smart? (If you don't mind me asking)

MIRecovery

There is nothing wrong with seeking out success stories there are some really wonderful ones. Unfortunately someone else's success story is not going to keep you sober.

I go to AA and there I have met people with 10 20 30 an even 40 years of sobriety. They share their experience with me about how they did it and I listened. By doing what they did I am keeping sober a day at a time

thereallucyd

Thanks for sharing that - I have every hope in the world that one day I have a success story of my own. For the first time I see the prospect of sobriety as exciting! I certainly know it won't be easy... but it doesn't seem daunting or appalling to me any more. I can't wait.

MIRecovery

For most of us it required a plan, will power alone was never enough. There are various ways to do it but almost all plans address the psychological, social, spiritual the physical, and education. You only have to change one thing and that is everything

You sound very committed my suggestion to you would be to do it right the first time and don't make a half assed attempt and then wonder why you did not stay sober

thereallucyd

I've had enough half-assed attempts... This is it. And I agree - everything must change. I used to think it was merely a matter of willpower, but that clearly isn't the case. It is people like you who inspire me and make me believe it is possible.

MIRecovery

I made more half-assed attempt than I can count. when I got honest with my love ones, went to see a doctor that specialize in addiction saught professional treatment and then followed up with AA that is what kept me sober

shellbellz

Keep going... thereallucyd...

thereallucyd

Thank you shellbellz! I will be spending a LOT of time here it looks like

apophylite

Welcome and good luck!

Dee74

welcome to SR thereallucyd

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Hevyn

Welcome! We're so glad you joined the family. I had many false starts too. SR helped me get strong and determined.

thereallucyd

Thank you to all... It is now the early hours of Wednesday morning, and I am surrounded by alcohol at a friend's place. But I have not and will not drink.

MIRecovery

I would not put myself in that situation and I have a few days of sobriety

Nattythreads

I'm not sure that's the best way to start tbh