30 Day 1 Month Check In ..
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Thanx; I have allot on my plate right now; so way too many challenges to go through lol But the main one is the desire to drown my sorrows and just drink it all away like I had done for the last 29years when I had any kind of problems ... Best benefit so far; least to me is gaining some self respect ..
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Hey August ,
thats a great achievement .
For me the emotional rollercoaster started to ease up after about 6 weeks , i guess it takes different amounts of time for each of us .
Keep on working at it, i know it's difficult but it is worth it imho
Bestwishes, m
thats a great achievement .
For me the emotional rollercoaster started to ease up after about 6 weeks , i guess it takes different amounts of time for each of us .
Keep on working at it, i know it's difficult but it is worth it imho
Bestwishes, m
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Dealing with things sober is a new experience that is good experience for us who may have escaped to the bottle for escape. I needed to learn that feelings were/are the thing that can trip me up even today years after I stopped drinking. Things like insecurity, anger, worry etc. BE WELL
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Good for you on the 30 days. I was the same @30. I still had not grasped how to handle issues, problems, emotions sober yet. I do know that the issues, problems and emotional fluctuations were caused by alcohol and it is easier to solve them sober. When drinking I did nothing but just drink the pain away. Now sober, I am slowly dealing with life - I try not to push myself or I will fall down that slippery slope.
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I am being asked to leave my home 
My ExGF's house I mean . The break up had nothing to do w\ alcohol persay, but it was b\c of alcohol that I did what I did to cause the break up .. If that makes sense .. Still a lil shaky about sharing too much of myself :p It's hard for me . This is devastating for me b\c I moved states to be w\ her and now I know after my last visit; if I go back to my home state; I will be dead in a year So I am trying to cope w\ knowing I am in a "strange" state, have no friends, don't like people and am not social at all lol Pathetic I know but I fear I have to chose; Death or a Shut In's life ..
My ExGF's house I mean . The break up had nothing to do w\ alcohol persay, but it was b\c of alcohol that I did what I did to cause the break up .. If that makes sense .. Still a lil shaky about sharing too much of myself :p It's hard for me . This is devastating for me b\c I moved states to be w\ her and now I know after my last visit; if I go back to my home state; I will be dead in a year So I am trying to cope w\ knowing I am in a "strange" state, have no friends, don't like people and am not social at all lol Pathetic I know but I fear I have to chose; Death or a Shut In's life ..
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Thanx; can't wait till it is 30 months :p Yea' a lil more then a break up .. I mean this is life changing LOL we have been together 12-15 years ... I still might be able to salvage her friendship though; and That is something I will need if I stay here ..
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Originally Posted by AugustWest11 
Thanx; can't wait till it is 30 months :p Yea' a lil more then a break up .. I mean this is life changing LOL we have been together 12-15 years ... I still might be able to salvage her friendship though; and That is something I will need if I stay here ..
Just wanted to say I am sorry you are going through this. I am also in the process of separation leading to divorce from my wife of 13 years. Not sure i want her friendship, but the whole process is really hard. I plan to come out of it a better and stronger person though, and I hope the same for you.
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Yea; well not looking good right at this moment Seems I DO have to get out so now the tough decision of staying here w\ no friends, no support, no family; or moving back to my home state where all my trouble can start again *sigh* So yea Now I want a Beer or 15
Seems I DO have to get out so now the tough decision of staying here w\ no friends, no support, no family; or moving back to my home state where all my trouble can start again *sigh* So yea Now I want a Beer or 15 Member
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30 Days man! The longer I'm sober the better things seem though there were some real rough patches in there. 30 days is something to be proud of.
See here how everything
Lead up to this day
And it's just like any other day
That's ever been
Always loved those lyrics and they seem more appropriate as I get older.
See here how everything
Lead up to this day
And it's just like any other day
That's ever been
Always loved those lyrics and they seem more appropriate as I get older.
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Originally Posted by Dee74
Congrats on 30 days AW - whatever is ahead for you I can guarantee drinking will make it worse not better
whatever happens you'll be ok, right?
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whatever happens you'll be ok, right?
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Right now I am trying to stay focused on not drinking and saving a friendship; so getting out of "here" ASAP is weighing heavy on me ...
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