Absolutely threw myself from the wagon...
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Absolutely threw myself from the wagon...
with gusto...
Yeah not good. I can examine the why's and the wherefore's tomorrow.
Not proud, but felt like I met a wall of anxiety, doubt and fear that I couldn't cope with. Took the easy way out. Didn't make the SMART meeting, which was the root of all this (old thread, facilitator knows ex etc)
So I decided vodka oclock.
Yeah, not good. Again.
Yeah not good. I can examine the why's and the wherefore's tomorrow.
Not proud, but felt like I met a wall of anxiety, doubt and fear that I couldn't cope with. Took the easy way out. Didn't make the SMART meeting, which was the root of all this (old thread, facilitator knows ex etc)
So I decided vodka oclock.
Yeah, not good. Again.
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Glad that you see how pointless it was and are back up in the driver's seat!
I know that wall you speak of very well.
I came close to it myself recently and luckily remembered a skill I learned a while back...when I get that old "hand me a bottle" feeling, I ask myself "what would a sober person do?" and then try that...
Now, some people might say "well, I'm NOT a sober person, so how do I know what they'd do?"
Well, I know this much, they don't drink. And that's a good start.
Saved my butt the other day.
Let's stay on the wagon...I call "shotgun"!
I know that wall you speak of very well.
I came close to it myself recently and luckily remembered a skill I learned a while back...when I get that old "hand me a bottle" feeling, I ask myself "what would a sober person do?" and then try that...
Now, some people might say "well, I'm NOT a sober person, so how do I know what they'd do?"
Well, I know this much, they don't drink. And that's a good start.
Saved my butt the other day.
Let's stay on the wagon...I call "shotgun"!
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Hey guys, thank you all xx
I'm still here and sober. Feeling frustrated and trying to examine why I always seemingly try to self destruct at about 3 weeks. I think it's because that's when the real hard work kicks in and I'm very discontent with life and it becomes so uncomfortable. Hmmm like drinking really solves anything?
I didn't actually feel too bad this morning, far from great but relieved that I ditched the remaining vodka otherwise, well it doesn't bear thinking about.
Pffft I need to start working on my stress coping strategies. I've only had one for a long long time.
Well done Threshold on getting through your struggle, good advice. I'll remember that one and get myself a plan in place.
Hmmm. Pffft and all that... needless to say any healthy eating has gone out of the window with it too. Carb loading extraordinaire today, sugar in my tea too. Pah stupid drink (stupid decision!)
I'm still here and sober. Feeling frustrated and trying to examine why I always seemingly try to self destruct at about 3 weeks. I think it's because that's when the real hard work kicks in and I'm very discontent with life and it becomes so uncomfortable. Hmmm like drinking really solves anything?
I didn't actually feel too bad this morning, far from great but relieved that I ditched the remaining vodka otherwise, well it doesn't bear thinking about.
Pffft I need to start working on my stress coping strategies. I've only had one for a long long time.
Well done Threshold on getting through your struggle, good advice. I'll remember that one and get myself a plan in place.
Hmmm. Pffft and all that... needless to say any healthy eating has gone out of the window with it too. Carb loading extraordinaire today, sugar in my tea too. Pah stupid drink (stupid decision!)
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