alf044

I agree. I was a very functioning drunk. Thought all was ok all around me. Missed alot of stuff of course. Still am. Blaming that on age tho....

Like2Hike

Stay strong, Alf, it gets easier. I, too, had 25+ years of abusing alcohol. At Day 1, I made it my absolute, had to accomplish goal to "win the day". I felt power in knowing that it could be accomplished by never putting alcohol in my hand and down my throat. Not easy but not complicated. That was on 2-jan'13 and the "win the day" plan isn't something I think often about now but it is my default behavior if an urge to drink comes along.

You're bigger than alcohol.

alf044

Good night all. I will touch base in the morning. Thanks

Received

I was a very functioning drunk too, at least on the outside. But on the inside, emotionally, spiritually and mentally I was dying.

I've too much to live for, to be completely present in life, the good and the bad.

You do too.

Soberpotamus

Doing ok today, Alf?

jagger2012

I'm in your same shoes ALF...this is day one for me and I have had a helluva lot of day ones...i fall, i get up...I have learned that self reliance always leads me back to drinking so this time I'm getting some help. We can do it together

alf044

alls good tonight. Thanks all