I write stuff like this
I write stuff like this
Found this on my phone. I guess I wrote it the last time I was messed up, but don't remember doing so. Im disgusted with the way I've been treating myself, and yet I'm the only one who can change my life.
Anyways here it is
This emptiness inside me
It lingers and rots
Consumes my life now
Ties up my thoughts
i keep filling up this black
With boose and drugs
Works for a bit
Till it's done and I hate it
and just want to quit
Not a daily drinker
But an addictive thinker
Use to help heal my pain
3 years of this mess
it seems so insane
Im in such a bad place
I don't think I would mind
If it all ended today
and i Left without a trace
Anyways here it is
This emptiness inside me
It lingers and rots
Consumes my life now
Ties up my thoughts
i keep filling up this black
With boose and drugs
Works for a bit
Till it's done and I hate it
and just want to quit
Not a daily drinker
But an addictive thinker
Use to help heal my pain
3 years of this mess
it seems so insane
Im in such a bad place
I don't think I would mind
If it all ended today
and i Left without a trace
I used to write alot of things too while I was caught up in my addiction. I kept it in a notebook. I think I finally got rid of it cause I was afraid what certain family members might do if they found it. I thought they might try to send me away someplace cause I wrote mostly either dark and depressing or angry stuff. I just had to get those thoughts out of my head at the time and I did feel a sense of relief afterward. That was back when I would isolate and was very distrusting of others. I am glad that now I do feel ok and able to share with others that I know really do care about me.
That is a good poem. It is sometimes nice to be reminded of where we came from in order to try to remember to keep moving forward in recovery.
That is a good poem. It is sometimes nice to be reminded of where we came from in order to try to remember to keep moving forward in recovery.
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