Caved at 17 days :(
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Join Date: May 2013
Location: Texas
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The buzz is artificial..empty, lonely, isolating, soul killing, money grubbing, joy stealing, weak and cowardly.
Oh...and edit for the OP. At least you recognized your slip up. Get back to sobriety! You can do it.
Crossfit -
You are so on point for me - though I think it is a combination of you and Nuu.
I was/am the same kind of drinker.
Thanks for posting, your perspective and Nuu's definitely carried me through this one.
You are so on point for me - though I think it is a combination of you and Nuu.
I was/am the same kind of drinker.
Thanks for posting, your perspective and Nuu's definitely carried me through this one.
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Join Date: Jun 2010
Location: UK
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Things I have tried..........
Not drinking through the week, just on weekends.
Not drinking spirits through the week, just wine or beer, then vodka on a weekend.
Not drinking more than 2 glasses of wine a night, then what I want on a weekend.
Drinking wine all the time. No vodka.
Drinking beer all the time. No vodka, no wine.
Drinking one can of super strength lager a night. Drinking as I wanted on a weekend.
Not drinking monday, tuesday wednesday, but drinking thursday, friday, saturday and sunday.
The results - massive epic sized fail which lasted all of about two nights and then I ended up back where I was.
You will get there if you want it.
My best
xx
Not drinking through the week, just on weekends.
Not drinking spirits through the week, just wine or beer, then vodka on a weekend.
Not drinking more than 2 glasses of wine a night, then what I want on a weekend.
Drinking wine all the time. No vodka.
Drinking beer all the time. No vodka, no wine.
Drinking one can of super strength lager a night. Drinking as I wanted on a weekend.
Not drinking monday, tuesday wednesday, but drinking thursday, friday, saturday and sunday.
The results - massive epic sized fail which lasted all of about two nights and then I ended up back where I was.
You will get there if you want it.
My best
xx
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Location: Canada
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I suppose I'm fortunate enough that the buzz wasn't bliss anymore..it was a fraud somehow. It's like that scene in the Wizard of Oz..when the great and powerful Oz was exposed for a frightened, nervous little man behind the curtain.
For me the buzz had lost its mystique as I had started to know what the "buzz" really was.. a cop out..and opt out..a numbness...a cowardly answer. I had come along far enough that it wasn't working anymore I guess. For that perhaps I am fortunate.
After over 25 years..I got pretty intimate with "my buzz"...a giant bullsh*t answer to everything and anything.
For me the buzz had lost its mystique as I had started to know what the "buzz" really was.. a cop out..and opt out..a numbness...a cowardly answer. I had come along far enough that it wasn't working anymore I guess. For that perhaps I am fortunate.
After over 25 years..I got pretty intimate with "my buzz"...a giant bullsh*t answer to everything and anything.
Hi RJY9
I think most of us have confused a period of not drinking with control.
It's not the same thing - I reckon if you really had control you would have remembered all the bad stuff that comes from your drinking and made the decision not to drink that wine.
I'm sorry you feel sobriety sucks - but altho it might seem like ages 17 days is pretty early - you're barely out of withdrawal by that time.
My life revolved around drinking,. When I stopped drinking I had no life left. I had to make changes.
Did you make any other changes to your life?
D
I think most of us have confused a period of not drinking with control.
It's not the same thing - I reckon if you really had control you would have remembered all the bad stuff that comes from your drinking and made the decision not to drink that wine.
I'm sorry you feel sobriety sucks - but altho it might seem like ages 17 days is pretty early - you're barely out of withdrawal by that time.
My life revolved around drinking,. When I stopped drinking I had no life left. I had to make changes.
Did you make any other changes to your life?
D
Good one Dee
I read somewhere to Concentrate on changing your life..... Not your drinking
Re invent your life and try to focus on other things then always " I'm not going to drink "
Always focusing on the drink makes it tough to "see other areas of your life you could improve.
I read somewhere to Concentrate on changing your life..... Not your drinking
Re invent your life and try to focus on other things then always " I'm not going to drink "
Always focusing on the drink makes it tough to "see other areas of your life you could improve.
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Join Date: Jun 2013
Location: England
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Love this, so true! Will keep this in mind next time i start craving. Anyway that's day 11 in the bag for me, night night!
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Join Date: Jun 2013
Location: England
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Love this, so true! Will keep this in mind next time i start craving. Thanks nuudawn. Anyway that's day 11 in the bag for me, night night!
You're unique; just like me Same thing here. After 50+ days of not drinking.... Drank. The beer I used to love tasted nasty, or at least the first 4 or 5. As best as I can figure out its just how this "thing" works. back up to 15 with some more ammo.
"all of a sudden i thought it was ok to drink??
My AV Beast does that one too.
"all of a sudden i thought it was ok to drink??
My AV Beast does that one too.
Yes sobriety sucked for me in the beginning too. Felt exposed and vulnerable. Lost my shield so to speak.
This journey has it's ups and downs. Focus on the days you were sober and remember what kept you there. I think it is important to know why we screwed up, but dwelling on it gets us know where. The important thing is did you learn anything from it and what you could do different next time.
This journey has it's ups and downs. Focus on the days you were sober and remember what kept you there. I think it is important to know why we screwed up, but dwelling on it gets us know where. The important thing is did you learn anything from it and what you could do different next time.
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Join Date: Mar 2012
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Well i drank on Friday and havent had any yesterday or not planning on having any today and its strange because i dont actually want to. I never used to be able to do this as i would carry on drinking. The way i look at it, is that ive drank once in 19 days will carry on my journey from here. Its all i can do and i'm pretty ertain i can suprise myself.
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