Ignite

Hi, I am a 36 year old female who has battled depression, alcohol abuse and drug use.
Alcohol is my nemesis - a catalyst for all the self-doubt, anxiety and depression. Along with the feelings of self-hatred, disappointment, wasted life, dampened soul, damaged relationships and health problems.

It was my birthday on Saturday..... a normal day - a bottle of wine and a bit more, then some beer - a couple of tequila slammers and more beer (after going out for the first time for years - yuck...)then the dreaded black vomit again....
I am now 36 years old. I have tried so many times to stop drinking...... this time a FIRE has lit inside me. Its a smaller flame this time, because it has to burn for a long long time to allow my transformation to the strong me trapped inside this tortured mind and body. The journey is long, but I'm up for it.

The only person that can change my behaviour is ME.
Wish me luck!

Let the healing begin.

ippochick

welcome, stay strong, and be well.

sithman

Stay strong! good luck!

there are a lot of nice people here for support!

post often!

visch1

Welcome and it's good to see your determination. Try to aim at one day at a time without drinking, and communicate with your posts. It helps when one is sick and tired of being sick and tired. When you think it wasn't that bad think and remember when it was. BE WELL

FeelingGreat

Ignite, i hope you'll always look back on this birthday as the one where you turned your life around.
Stay on SR, let us know how you are going.

sassu78

Welcome!!