Reaching Out
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Join Date: Feb 2012
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Reaching Out
Hello, I've never posted before, but I feel I'm on my last leg here.
I'm 28 yrs old and been dealing with alcohol/substance abuse for over 10 yrs. I'll get clean for a while, but it always creeps back. My father passed away in Nov, my mother is passed too. For the past few months my alcoholism has progressed rapidly. I drink in the morning to "level" out, I drink on my lunch breaks, and then go to the bar after work, or go home and drink...just to be able to "feel". I've been in and out of therapy and in outpatient once. Due to some financial difficulties, unfortunately I cannot afford inpatient rehab as I so need. I know I should walk back through those AA doors. My family does not understand and they shy away from my probs, hoping that I will just magically get better someday. We all just kind of pretend it doesn't exist. This forum is really great and has helped me through some tough times...I have a very hard time with reaching out for help, or just talking about it. I guess I just needed to "put this out there" for a start, for myself. Thats the first step, right? Feeling stuck...
I'm 28 yrs old and been dealing with alcohol/substance abuse for over 10 yrs. I'll get clean for a while, but it always creeps back. My father passed away in Nov, my mother is passed too. For the past few months my alcoholism has progressed rapidly. I drink in the morning to "level" out, I drink on my lunch breaks, and then go to the bar after work, or go home and drink...just to be able to "feel". I've been in and out of therapy and in outpatient once. Due to some financial difficulties, unfortunately I cannot afford inpatient rehab as I so need. I know I should walk back through those AA doors. My family does not understand and they shy away from my probs, hoping that I will just magically get better someday. We all just kind of pretend it doesn't exist. This forum is really great and has helped me through some tough times...I have a very hard time with reaching out for help, or just talking about it. I guess I just needed to "put this out there" for a start, for myself. Thats the first step, right? Feeling stuck...
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Hi Dancing - thanks for reaching out.
It is hard to do isn't it? We're all anonymous and yet just typing the first post made my hands shake and it took a lot of deliberation to hit 'post'. Im guessing you went through something similar.
Well done on doing that - and you obviously know that you need to be sober. If you want to you can be with the hard work that goes into it - but it sounds like you can do it to me.
In fact it sounds like that you want to stop drinking more than you want a drink. Stay strong and you can do this!!!
It is hard to do isn't it? We're all anonymous and yet just typing the first post made my hands shake and it took a lot of deliberation to hit 'post'. Im guessing you went through something similar.
Well done on doing that - and you obviously know that you need to be sober. If you want to you can be with the hard work that goes into it - but it sounds like you can do it to me.
In fact it sounds like that you want to stop drinking more than you want a drink. Stay strong and you can do this!!!
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to SR! The first step to solving a problem is admitting there is one. Give AA a chance to help you if you haven't yet. Many people have gotten sober with AA. There are other ways to get sober too. REad around the site and post as you like. You've come to a good place for support and understanding.
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Originally Posted by DancingbtRealms 
I know I should walk back through those AA doors.
All the best.
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The first post here is the hardest. As I composed my first post here I could barely see the screen for the tears of regret and shame.
Thanks for sharing. There is a lot of good information and helpful folks here.
Thanks for sharing. There is a lot of good information and helpful folks here.
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Hey Dancing, a lot of families prefer not to talk about 'the elephant in the room' but perhaps now is the time to be open and honest and ask them for help. Would your family be able to assist with rehab costs?
If you do not feel you can talk to them just yet, then see your doctor for help coming off your physical addiction. You are young, and you have so much potential, please take this oportunity to turn your life around. Plenty your age do not drink for a variety of reasons, so don't look on it as giving anything up, but of making more of your life. Good luck
If you do not feel you can talk to them just yet, then see your doctor for help coming off your physical addiction. You are young, and you have so much potential, please take this oportunity to turn your life around. Plenty your age do not drink for a variety of reasons, so don't look on it as giving anything up, but of making more of your life. Good luck
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Welcome Dancing. I'm very glad you found us.
I felt so much better when I came here and could open up about my drinking. No one in my life understood what I was going through. We've all been there and want to support your journey to a sober life. You can do it.
I felt so much better when I came here and could open up about my drinking. No one in my life understood what I was going through. We've all been there and want to support your journey to a sober life. You can do it.
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Welcome!!! I flirted with sobriety in my 20's and I was soooo much happier... until I relapsed. It's now 10 years later and I wish I had stuck to sobriety back then. You just can't get those years back. Great for you that you're doing this now. 
It is the best thing you can do for yourself.
It is the best thing you can do for yourself.
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Thanks so much for all your kind words of support and encouragement, they have given me strength to not drink since I posted
Today, I have a clear head, thanks so much again. So thankful and blessed for you all and this forum.
Today, I have a clear head, thanks so much again. So thankful and blessed for you all and this forum.
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I am glad your here.
Welcome to our family!
I think sometimes it is hard for others to understand when they do not suffer from addiction themselves.
It might simple to them - just don't drink so much or cut down.
But its not always a case of that.
Some people have to adjust to a sober life, get used to it.
SR has helped me beyond words.
I think it will help you too.
My best to you
xx
Welcome to our family!
I think sometimes it is hard for others to understand when they do not suffer from addiction themselves.
It might simple to them - just don't drink so much or cut down.
But its not always a case of that.
Some people have to adjust to a sober life, get used to it.
SR has helped me beyond words.
I think it will help you too.
My best to you
xx
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