Overthehorizon

Here I am at the coffee shop working away, trying to stay busy instead of thinking about that I generally would have started my first beer by now, while bouncing my baby and letting my 7 yo watch her shows...

Yesterday was easy for me. Today, I found myself negotiating with myself... Already!!!

I heard myself saying, "Well, you can have a drink when you go out with friends. No alcohol at home, just when you're out. What about your wedding? What will you say when you go to one of the many social functions with your co-workers and they wonder why you're ordering a non-alcoholic drink? There's a birthday party this weekend and is it okay to have just one drink? Ugh... Already...

Day 2 is harder. Yesterday's convinction is fading, but after reading other people's posts saying this is your AV speaking- my addiction- it makes these feelings and thoughts more manageable. What does all this negotiating mean? What do you do when this voice becomes louder in your head?

least

When that voice used to scream at me I would just tell it to stfu. It took a while but with time that voice grew dimmer and eventually it went away. Stay sober one day at a time and that voice will go away.

lessgravity

Do you hear how that voice is talking to you? Don't negotiate with it. There is none of that. Tell it you're not drinking and that thanks you are moving on.

Have you read Rational Recovery?

whipster

That voice is your reptilian brain stem wanting pleasure through drink. You can outsmart a lizard.

Nonsensical

I wish I could turn that voice off. All it does is tell me lies. If I could turn it off I would, but I can't. I have to hear it, but I don't have to listen to it. It has no power. It's just a voice.

Don't believe its lies. You can do this.

ippochick

whipster, i stole your quote for my sig. hope that's ok?