"You don't have to do this"
Sober Today
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Join Date: Jun 2013
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Thank you so much for the support and responses. I was so worried I'd post and no one would respond and then I'd wallow more.
Nuudawn - I woke up grumpy this morning for some reason (tired maybe?). Then I had a TON of work to do and I'm reallllllly burned out with my work. Plus my kids are off for the summer so I'm working 60 hours a week while also taking care of them all day. I was feeling a lot of anger today.
I had such a good past couple of days that I had convinced myself that this sobriety thing isn't so hard. I guess if it were easy I wouldn't be an alcoholic. Duh moment for myself.
Nuudawn - I woke up grumpy this morning for some reason (tired maybe?). Then I had a TON of work to do and I'm reallllllly burned out with my work. Plus my kids are off for the summer so I'm working 60 hours a week while also taking care of them all day. I was feeling a lot of anger today.
I had such a good past couple of days that I had convinced myself that this sobriety thing isn't so hard. I guess if it were easy I wouldn't be an alcoholic. Duh moment for myself.
Crazy Cat Lady
Join Date: Aug 2011
Location: Seattle, WA
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My AV can get really loud and insistent too. What works for me is hitting a meeting or contacting another alcoholic. Failing that, I come here like you've done. Remember that these cravings do not last forever. Yes, you can take a drink but you can never take it back. My only choice is to not drink because when I do, I no longer have a choice. When I crave, I have to look inside myself and ask "what's up? Why is this happening?" So far, i've found that there's a character flaw at work. I'm angry, frustrated, tired of generally discontent. How can I deal with this constructively? I can call someone or go to a meeting that gets me out of my head and helps me to remember that I am useful and can be of help to other people. If i'm frustrated, I can take a break from what i'm doing and read a couple of chapters from a book. The important thing to remember is that we always have options that don't involve drinking. There is no problem that drinking can't make worse. Find a simple activity that can give you a release. Like I said, I like to read and I drink a glass of water or milk. I also like to color like a 6 year old. I manage to stay within the lines a good bit too! Eventually, I settle back into an emotional balance and I find myself generally content again. Is it easy? Sometimes but sometimes it isn't. Do the feelings pass? Eventually they do. Maybe not as soon as I want but there are many things in my life that happen on a schedule not of my choosing. Keep not taking that first drink. You can do it!
Nothing is impossible!
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Originally Posted by GreenEggsAndHam 
"You don't have to do this. You don't have to stop drinking, you know."
This is what my AV is telling me today. I can't make it shut up.
I don't want my kids to see me crying and now it's telling me the crying will stop if I drink some beer.
I had such good days up until today. This sucks.
This is what my AV is telling me today. I can't make it shut up.
I don't want my kids to see me crying and now it's telling me the crying will stop if I drink some beer.I had such good days up until today. This sucks.
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