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Well done. I'm glad you've decided to try no wine for a while
Hi, just joining in. Welcome ivehadenoughnow! I've been sober for about 10 months, and like most of the other posters, tried for years to control my drinking. Instead, my drinking just got worse and worse, til I was drinking all day long every day. I still maintained a highly respected, professional job, and outwardly seemed fine, all the while dying, emotionally and physically. I kept thinking if I could just find a way to handle my stress, I wouldn't have to drink so much.i didn't have any great plan for stopping, I finally just did somehow. I learned how to cope with stress AFTER I stopped.
What helped me the most was being on this forum every night, and going to AA almost every day. AA taught me how to deal with stress and find some inner peace, through the 12 steps. Seriously, I am not the AA type, or didn't think I was, but it saved me. I still go to meetings once or twice a week, and "work the program.". I highly recommend you check out a meeting. Just go and listen, see if you hear your story there. Other programs work too, but AA was what worked for me, after trying so many other ways.
Yes, I still get stressed, no, my life isnt perfect,but drinking is no longer an option for coping with stress, and I am a happier person by far as a sober person.
Best of luck too you!
What helped me the most was being on this forum every night, and going to AA almost every day. AA taught me how to deal with stress and find some inner peace, through the 12 steps. Seriously, I am not the AA type, or didn't think I was, but it saved me. I still go to meetings once or twice a week, and "work the program.". I highly recommend you check out a meeting. Just go and listen, see if you hear your story there. Other programs work too, but AA was what worked for me, after trying so many other ways.
Yes, I still get stressed, no, my life isnt perfect,but drinking is no longer an option for coping with stress, and I am a happier person by far as a sober person.
Best of luck too you!
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Yay I'vehadenough! This is a great thread...and I think you can see you are not alone in your challenges.
Good for you trying sobriety - I'm interested to hear from you again once you have a few weeks sober and see if you notice a reduction in stress levels. I predict you will
Good for you trying sobriety - I'm interested to hear from you again once you have a few weeks sober and see if you notice a reduction in stress levels. I predict you will
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Yay I'vehadenough! This is a great thread...and I think you can see you are not alone in your challenges.
Good for you trying sobriety - I'm interested to hear from you again once you have a few weeks sober and see if you notice a reduction in stress levels. I predict you will
Good for you trying sobriety - I'm interested to hear from you again once you have a few weeks sober and see if you notice a reduction in stress levels. I predict you will
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By the way, my wife has very little control over the kids. They don't pull that with me because they know where I stand at all times, I'm always fair, I never bribe, and I am always consistent. My wife prefers to fly by the seat of her pants, they know what they can get away with, and she makes idle threats that she rarely follows through with. Each morning is a series of chaotic rushing yelling. Each night at bedtime is the same. I realize that stress is part of life, and I'm taking steps to cope with it better. When I drank wine at night, I chose to do so, with encouragement from my AV. When I allow my environment to stress me out, I allowed it to happen, and I don't have to. This morning I failed miserably. I let it get to me immediately and I went from a 0 straight to a 10 within 3 minutes. I also hired a therapist that I can work with, in fact I hired her 3 weeks ago. She has been working with me on trying to be accepting of my wife's stress. Currently I am not. My viewpoint is that "it doesn't have to be that way." I feel it could easily be reversed if need be, so I let it get to me. Anyways, nothing happens overnight but it is something I'd really like to reduce or get a hold of.
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Hey IHEN
I noticed you mentioned Julian Jaynes a few pages back and I was curious what you thought of his work. Have you read Trimpey on Jaynes?
I am a single parent of triplets (share custody with dad). One of them has moderate to severe autism. I work full time and manage my household and my finances completely on my own, so I understand stress.
I'm glad you are reading about AVRT. I have found it the most effective way to end my addiction(s) (alcohol, pills, nicotine). Understand that it is just a technique for ending your addiction, nothing more. But the thing is, once you rid yourself of the bigass monkey on your back, then you have a million ways to go about improving your life if you wish.
My .02 would be to read Rational Recovery:The New Cure for Substance Addiction, and the AVRT threads mentioned prior. You don't have to be a "secular person" to choose secular recovery. Many people of faith do so for various reasons.
Anyway, best to you. You can be completely free from the grips of addiction if you so choose. I believe in you.
I noticed you mentioned Julian Jaynes a few pages back and I was curious what you thought of his work. Have you read Trimpey on Jaynes?
I am a single parent of triplets (share custody with dad). One of them has moderate to severe autism. I work full time and manage my household and my finances completely on my own, so I understand stress.
I'm glad you are reading about AVRT. I have found it the most effective way to end my addiction(s) (alcohol, pills, nicotine). Understand that it is just a technique for ending your addiction, nothing more. But the thing is, once you rid yourself of the bigass monkey on your back, then you have a million ways to go about improving your life if you wish.
My .02 would be to read Rational Recovery:The New Cure for Substance Addiction, and the AVRT threads mentioned prior. You don't have to be a "secular person" to choose secular recovery. Many people of faith do so for various reasons.
Anyway, best to you. You can be completely free from the grips of addiction if you so choose. I believe in you.
By the way, my wife has very little control over the kids. They don't pull that with me because they know where I stand at all times, I'm always fair, I never bribe, and I am always consistent. My wife prefers to fly by the seat of her pants, they know what they can get away with, and she makes idle threats that she rarely follows through with.
I never had any success in getting my wife to set limits with the kids and keeping them. Years and years of frustration.
I once got her attention for about 4 hours by telling her she was the reason our sons would grow up thinking when a woman says no, she really means yes. But it soon faded, and I was the referee/enforcer again.
The good news is that it all worked out. Best of luck to you!
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Hey IHEN
I noticed you mentioned Julian Jaynes a few pages back and I was curious what you thought of his work. Have you read Trimpey on Jaynes?
I am a single parent of triplets (share custody with dad). One of them has moderate to severe autism. I work full time and manage my household and my finances completely on my own, so I understand stress.
I'm glad you are reading about AVRT. I have found it the most effective way to end my addiction(s) (alcohol, pills, nicotine). Understand that it is just a technique for ending your addiction, nothing more. But the thing is, once you rid yourself of the bigass monkey on your back, then you have a million ways to go about improving your life if you wish.
My .02 would be to read Rational Recovery:The New Cure for Substance Addiction, and the AVRT threads mentioned prior. You don't have to be a "secular person" to choose secular recovery. Many people of faith do so for various reasons.
Anyway, best to you. You can be completely free from the grips of addiction if you so choose. I believe in you.
I noticed you mentioned Julian Jaynes a few pages back and I was curious what you thought of his work. Have you read Trimpey on Jaynes?
I am a single parent of triplets (share custody with dad). One of them has moderate to severe autism. I work full time and manage my household and my finances completely on my own, so I understand stress.
I'm glad you are reading about AVRT. I have found it the most effective way to end my addiction(s) (alcohol, pills, nicotine). Understand that it is just a technique for ending your addiction, nothing more. But the thing is, once you rid yourself of the bigass monkey on your back, then you have a million ways to go about improving your life if you wish.
My .02 would be to read Rational Recovery:The New Cure for Substance Addiction, and the AVRT threads mentioned prior. You don't have to be a "secular person" to choose secular recovery. Many people of faith do so for various reasons.
Anyway, best to you. You can be completely free from the grips of addiction if you so choose. I believe in you.
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Wow, this sounds very familiar.
I never had any success in getting my wife to set limits with the kids and keeping them. Years and years of frustration.
I once got her attention for about 4 hours by telling her she was the reason our sons would grow up thinking when a woman says no, she really means yes. But it soon faded, and I was the referee/enforcer again.
The good news is that it all worked out. Best of luck to you!
I never had any success in getting my wife to set limits with the kids and keeping them. Years and years of frustration.
I once got her attention for about 4 hours by telling her she was the reason our sons would grow up thinking when a woman says no, she really means yes. But it soon faded, and I was the referee/enforcer again.
The good news is that it all worked out. Best of luck to you!
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Originally Posted by ivehadenoughnow
Without even realizing it I have changed many behaviors in my life through something similar to this
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If she'd let me I would. There are things you can do to minimize the insane behaviors and I'm right there side by side with her with the exception of 10-3 where I go to the office for a bit. But that is another issue entirely. I can't make her do anything, it is up to her, I just wished it wasn't so impacting.
this is a great thread, I am jumping in here probably way too late, but anyway. Maybe I have missed your post progression and maybe you have been to this stage already I'vehadenough, but have you determined if you are an alcoholic?
Once we accept that we are alcoholics, there is no option of managed drinking, because we simply can't.
I tried drinking "controlled", "safely", etc, but I always underestimated the nature of this disease: that even if I put 8 to 12 hours between myself and my last drink, the obsession was still intense, like no time had passed at all.
Maybe you are not an alcoholic. Can you quit for a week, a month without too much effort?
Once we accept that we are alcoholics, there is no option of managed drinking, because we simply can't.
I tried drinking "controlled", "safely", etc, but I always underestimated the nature of this disease: that even if I put 8 to 12 hours between myself and my last drink, the obsession was still intense, like no time had passed at all.
Maybe you are not an alcoholic. Can you quit for a week, a month without too much effort?
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Yes I have progressed. I am most certainly am a problem drinker, that frequently quits when training for a race without too much trouble. I tend to drink significantly more when I get stressed which is a pattern for me. Wife sent me a pic today of a mess the little one made. I immediate felt anxiety in my chest and my face felt flush thinking about the potential chaos at home when I got there. The moment I felt it my AV called out to me. Again, the stress isn't what made me pour the glass of wine, I did that, but one certainly leads to the other, and lately almost every night.
One thing I know for sure is that the stress outside of the house is non-existent. None at work. None when we go to other people's houses, with the kids. None when we go out on a date to the movies, like last night. I have associated my house with complete chaos and stress and I need to change it up. It is summer so I'm going to try and keep the kids out much later so that the time we spend here isn't so long. When they are entertained and busy they are perfect, but keep them in the house for any extended period of time they make you pay. Keep my wife in the house for any extended period of time she is grumpy. It is just a drag to be around chaos and grumpiness and it literally is driving me out of my mind. The wine numbed my mind for 3 hours a night which is why I did it, but it doesn't help me deal with the other 21 hours, in fact makes them worse. I don't need to explain why it is a bad idea. In any case I decided to eliminate it from my life and see if I'm a more patient father and husband, I just don't know at this point.
One thing I know for sure is that the stress outside of the house is non-existent. None at work. None when we go to other people's houses, with the kids. None when we go out on a date to the movies, like last night. I have associated my house with complete chaos and stress and I need to change it up. It is summer so I'm going to try and keep the kids out much later so that the time we spend here isn't so long. When they are entertained and busy they are perfect, but keep them in the house for any extended period of time they make you pay. Keep my wife in the house for any extended period of time she is grumpy. It is just a drag to be around chaos and grumpiness and it literally is driving me out of my mind. The wine numbed my mind for 3 hours a night which is why I did it, but it doesn't help me deal with the other 21 hours, in fact makes them worse. I don't need to explain why it is a bad idea. In any case I decided to eliminate it from my life and see if I'm a more patient father and husband, I just don't know at this point.
I would say that your original post matches most of my original thinking on reduction. At the height of my drinking I was doing P90X and running. Wife, kids (special need) and alcohol was my stress reliever (or so I thought). Hey I was healthy, just a little high too often. I wanted to live the French paradox, healthy Mediterranean wine diet. I tried it for many years, but could never achieve equilibrium with alcohol. It was always a pendulum swinging ever farther to one side.
Also I'd note, if there are people who found moderation worked, they probably aren't on boards like these. You will receive recommendations and stories on complete cessation.
Also I'd note, if there are people who found moderation worked, they probably aren't on boards like these. You will receive recommendations and stories on complete cessation.
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Home, your wife and kids, should be a place you look forward to... I can only say that until recently I dreaded when my husband came home, and he didn't want to come home. We had many good things in our lives but we were "keeping up appearances" . But day to day we were miserable. i drank at night to avoid him, he was the problem (now I know that's a cop out, I drank because I wanted to, me me me me, I I I I). Our relationship suffered, our children suffered, I suffered! We were constantly battling, when we should have been uniting. We finally sought counseling. We started appreciating each other again. We learned how to address/resolve issues. It is not perfect, but so worth it. It is impossible to see things clearly with alcohol. You, your wife and family deserve a chance....
Today I will be glad when my husband comes home, I will greet him with a big sober hug. He recently said "it is a lot easier to love you than to hate you". Couldn't have said it better!
Today I will be glad when my husband comes home, I will greet him with a big sober hug. He recently said "it is a lot easier to love you than to hate you". Couldn't have said it better!
By the way, my wife has very little control over the kids. They don't pull that with me because they know where I stand at all times, I'm always fair, I never bribe, and I am always consistent. My wife prefers to fly by the seat of her pants, they know what they can get away with, and she makes idle threats that she rarely follows through with. Each morning is a series of chaotic rushing yelling. Each night at bedtime is the same. I realize that stress is part of life, and I'm taking steps to cope with it better. When I drank wine at night, I chose to do so, with encouragement from my AV. When I allow my environment to stress me out, I allowed it to happen, and I don't have to. This morning I failed miserably. I let it get to me immediately and I went from a 0 straight to a 10 within 3 minutes. I also hired a therapist that I can work with, in fact I hired her 3 weeks ago. She has been working with me on trying to be accepting of my wife's stress. Currently I am not. My viewpoint is that "it doesn't have to be that way." I feel it could easily be reversed if need be, so I let it get to me. Anyways, nothing happens overnight but it is something I'd really like to reduce or get a hold of.
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It sounds like you're really on the right track of completely cutting out alcohol as well as seeing a therapist. Maybe you've already done this, but thought I'd mention just in case, have you already gone to therapy together? Sounds like you're both stressed to the limits and therapy together could help?
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