Why do I forget just how awful it is?
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Why do I forget just how awful it is?
I am floored by this disease and how I manage to forget the pain and suffering that ensues after a relapse. Its brutal and yet I drank again. Its day 2 and I am determined to get back to the place where I am sober and actually begin to like myself again. I was bordering on a pretty happy existence. I would not wish this disease on my worst enemy. I'm tired of its power over me. Help!
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don't entertain the thought of drinking
Originally Posted by JBird100 
I am floored by this disease and how I manage to forget the pain and suffering that ensues after a relapse.
so many times I deceived myself into drinking again
twice with almost three years sober
I learned not to trust the guy who looks back at me in the mirror
my head can go to "stinking thinking" real fast
don't entertain the thought of drinking
if we do for long we will drink yet again
twice with almost three years sober
I learned not to trust the guy who looks back at me in the mirror
my head can go to "stinking thinking" real fast
don't entertain the thought of drinking
if we do for long we will drink yet again
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This is one of the most salient aspects of addiction for so many of us. I call it misery amnesia. I've found that it doesn't really help me to focus on it bc it doesn't necessarily help in not drinking.
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From The Dr's Opinion in the book of Alcoholics Anonymous p XXVII
I forget as well how bad it was and I drink again. It's the insanity that proceeds the first drink that the book also talks about. I drink because I'm an alcoholic and I need God (a power greater than myself) for any hope of recovery.
Day 2 is awesome
I'm on day 3 so I guess I'm really at day 2 as well when counting days ofrrecovery. Let's do this!
* *Men and women drink essentially because they like the effect produced by alcohol. The sensation is so elusive that, while they admit it is injurious, they cannot after a time differentiate the true from the false. To them, their alcoholic life seems the only normal one. They are restless, irritable and discontented, unless they can again experience
XXIX
the sense of ease and comfort which comes at once by taking a few drinks-drinks which they see others taking with impunity. After they have succumbed to the desire again, as so many do, and the phenomenon of craving develops, they pass through the well-known stages of a spree, emerging remorseful, with a firm resolution not to drink again. This is repeated over and over, and unless this person can experience an entire psychic change there is very little hope of his recovery.
XXIX
the sense of ease and comfort which comes at once by taking a few drinks-drinks which they see others taking with impunity. After they have succumbed to the desire again, as so many do, and the phenomenon of craving develops, they pass through the well-known stages of a spree, emerging remorseful, with a firm resolution not to drink again. This is repeated over and over, and unless this person can experience an entire psychic change there is very little hope of his recovery.
Day 2 is awesome
I'm on day 3 so I guess I'm really at day 2 as well when counting days ofrrecovery. Let's do this!
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Jbord, "bordering on happiness" can be a scary place. I stood at that point many times, and chose to jump back into drinking. I knew nothing of happiness and I knew plenty about failing. Take the leap of faith, and read the words in my signature.
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Originally Posted by JBird100
I am floored by this disease and how I manage to forget the pain and suffering that ensues after a relapse.
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I think it helps to not think so much about the reasons period. We tend to forget how bad we feel when we are drinking or using. I just have a general thought in my mind that I can never drink a drop of alcohol again. Period. I don't care to find out if I'm able to do it in moderation or not. I'm just embracing all of the good things that sobriety brings and this is my new life. If I'm here and at aa and not drinking any longer, I kno there has to be good reason for it and so why even go back?
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Originally Posted by mick3580
I used to forget to remember not to drink. Now I don't. I addressed the problem and found the solution.
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