Bensmammy

5 years to the day give or take – I googled how to get motivated – I was depressed for no reason – they tell me I am clinically depressed – whatever that means – have been since the birth of my son (he’s 9 now) – after reading the usual motivational blogs – I came across A RANDOM FORUM AND ONE FELLA SAID ….. MOTIVATION I FIND IN BOMBAY SPPPHIRE – I put my eyes to heaven and thought jeez I hate gin !!!! Something happened that day – I bought a bottle of vodka and have not stopped getting drunk since – don’t get me wrong – I have gone three days coz I was worse for wear after a marathon binge.

5 years on I am lucky to be alive let alone still have a marriage and a job – but it’s just a matter of time before I lose all.

Please help

alcoholic123

Hi Bensmammy,

Are you 3 days sober ? If so you can make that 3 weeks, then 3 months.

Bensmammy

Hey 123 - Thanks for replying - No had a drink last night

Nonsensical

Welcome Bensmammy.

You can get sober. There are a bunch of different methods being used successfully by members here. You can read all about them and perhaps find the best fit for you.

You can do this!

heath480

Welcome to SR.

Bensmammy

Aw Thanks Paul - I don't know where to start - I will have a good read .... Thanks so much were you an alcoholic once too ?

Bensmammy

Thanks heath480

Bensmammy

Wednesday 19th June 2013 has to be the day I get my life on track

Nonsensical

Once. Now. Always.

My brain became addicted to alcohol. That's permanent. My use of alcohol is not.

ChrissieB

Yes Bensmammy Wednesday 19th is your day, you want a new life and you will have it 24 hours at a time... There is a support thread where you sign up for 24 hours it is on the main p age under daily threads... It really helps me. What is working for me is this forum and AA xx

Bensmammy

aw thanks Chrissie - reallly appriciate your comment - your not far ahead of me 7/6/13 - but in the great scheme of things 12 days is a life time

ersatzmatriarch

hi, bensmammy...

welcome to SR! you've found a wonderful place for strength and encouragement.

you can live sober... 24 hours at a time! read around here, post thoughts and questions, make a plan for yourself, and know you are not alone.

Bensmammy

Thanks ersatzmatriarch - hope this is the first day of the rest of my life .... it has to be

ersatzmatriarch

it absolutely CAN be the first day of a new life!!!

sending you strength...

Bensmammy

Thanks to all who posted .... I hope I can help someone one day ... really apprciate it .... this is very hard

Bensmammy

thanks Chrissie x

strawberryblond

Bensmammy- this is my day 4 (should have been day 6 but I loused that up and had to start over). Coming here has made so much difference in my daily decisions, even if I just read other's posts. I really hope you keep coming back. A week ago, I was sick and tired of myself. Now I feel something changing inside, slowly but steadily, and I'm starting to be (dare I say it?) hopeful about the future. This isn't easy, by a long shot, but it may be the best hard work you could ever do in your life.

Bensmammy

Thanks again everyone - day 1 has been tough - but looking forward to a bright future

Bensmammy

Have spent last couple of hours reading threads about people just like me - I wish I had found this site years ago - first time I've actually felt positive enough to say its time to stop - hope I feel like this tomorrow

Bensmammy

Day 2 back at work 😁