purechaos

My husband and children are sleeping... I am sitting in a quiet house listening to depressing music... all I can think about is how I wouldn't be so lonely with my pills.... 8 days clean....I need to keep myself busy.... I can't be alone. Need to find something else to do....

Michael66

Hi purechaos

Sorry things are hard. Early sobriety is tough at times isn't it.

Perhaps switch off the depressing music? I'm not saying you'll suddenly feel like Maria Von Trapp on the Austrian hillside, but it takes away one small mood downer.

Sending thoughts and prayers your way.

God bless +

Michael

Pondlady

Learning about ourselves is such an important part of our recovery....well done.

Dee74

Hi purechoas - I'd definitely change that routine.

switch off the depressing music and find something to do maybe?

D

Bubovski

Used to sit around weeping nights over Hank Williams music.

My wife said for a long time I needed a passion.........but where?

These days attending AA..........things for the good are starting to happen.

least

Make some changes in your routine. Keep yourself busy and don't listen to depressing music.

Acheleus

Listen to POSITIVE music. Maybe learn about and listen to a genre you have never heard before. You can do this!

Anna

I used to hate being alone and it was a huge trigger for me to go ahead and drink because hiding my drinking was my goal. As I began to recover, I realized that I liked being on my own sometimes, and I actually began to need it as I learned to balance my life. Try to find things to do that you enjoy when you're along. Watch a favourite movie, read a great book, listen to uplifting music, whatever works for you.

2granddaughters

I'm sure there are Narcotics Anonymous meetings in your area.

You wouldn't be alone and you'd be on the road to recovery.

All the best.

Bob R

Nuudawn

Hey PC. I hear ya. Being alone is a big trigger for me...which is kinda tough since I live alone lol. It's actually not the being alone..it's when I FEEL alone and lonely. I'm great around others but I also value my alone time but I gotta be wary of when its too much alone time..which can happen anytime. I'm having lonely day a bit today..so I've had "thoughts" about bailing on my sober journey..nothing too intense..but I gotta stay wary. Today is one of those days that I have to hold onto just getting through..today. I know tomorrow will be a whole new ball game. It usually works that way.

fantail

I've been thinking a lot about music lately. I'd kind of forgotten this but after a while sober, I've rediscovered just how quickly music works on the brain. I guess in comparison to booze it was nothing, but sober it's become a really key tool for me when I'm trying to weather a mood.

I definitely like to wallow in depressing music sometimes too, I guess I'm just saying, don't downplay how much of an effect that can have on you.