Legend40

today has been one of the worst days of my life, between not sleeping right because of back, neck and hip pain all night long. being tired all day, my greedy family member taking food out of my mouth and forcing me to spend money that i can afford. i am about sick of this garbage, i dont even know why i am trying... i am suppose to take my meds tonight but i dont want to anymore because i wanna get trashed until i cant stand up, maybe ill get hit by a car or OD....

ElegantlyWasted

Ummm You OK Legend? I felt the pull to visit La La Land today too. Resist. It will pass. Vent away too; It can be cathartic.

ImperfectlyMe

I think you need to sit with a pen and paper and write yourself two letters one to the guy who makes it through the night sober and one to the guy who doesn't.

See which one you'd rather receive!

hypochondriac

Getting trashed isn't a good revenge for people who p;ss you off. I know it can be unpleasant sometimes but persevere and it will get better. Hang in there x

sandgirl

I have found recently smashing something, hitting pillows and running like mad can help you stay sane. Getting yourself smashed just seems to make everything worse!

Legend40

it runs deeper than that, but according to the rules i cant speak of that here so out of respect for everyone i will not say that. but i would rather be somewhere else than here

Dee74

Hows it going with sorting out your Dr and medication problems Legend?

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Doubtful

I agree 100%!! Make a list too of all the reasons you quit... it will be a real eye opener and hopefully help you stay sober tonight.

Nonsensical

I got drunk so I would feel better recently. It didn't work for me. I felt like a gigantic bag of a-holes when I came out of it. I don't recommend it.

ImperfectlyMe

I think we're all afraid to touch this one there was a simalar post earlier. I do hope you are ok! And call someone to talk to

Legend40

why cant i just be numb, i have been in a cruddy mood for days this hasnt changed for me

Dee74

Why not do something positive instead to change your circumstances and the things that are annoying you Legend?

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tomsteve

you can be numb, but doin it with drugs and alcohol isn't a very good choice. when the drugs and alcohol wear off, life will be right there. still.

you can start by not allowing unacceptable behavior around you. don't let people walk in and take your food.

living in the solution has done wonders for me and for every problem there is a solution.

Legend40

i have no way to get food because the greedy loser has taken everything, i am tired of spending money on food when the state provides us with other means so we can survive

Dee74

I dunno how it works in NYC but where I am there's various food banks and soup kitchens Legend if you're hungry.

Obviously you need to look at your boundaries with this relationship.
Stand up for yourself.

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Pedro1234

I am sending my positive thoughts your was Legend40. Try and be strong. If you get through this you will come out the other end even stronger and then there will be no stopping you and your progress moving forward. Maybe these things are sent to test us?

Legend40

i dont think so, i have been stuck in this environment for years and i cant get out. no organization will help me get away from this, its like i dont matter at all

Mizzuno

I hope that you are alright. What about seeing your dr?

ImperfectlyMe

If I may ask what exactly is your situation if you have previously stated it .... I didn't read it

ScottFromWI

Legend:

You can drink if you want to, or take any drugs you want to. You can also choose to stay sober. Which choice do you think gives you the best chance of getting out of he situation you are currently having issues with?

At some point you will need to make a conscious effort to get better and make the best of things. Blame and pity will not work. We understand you have other issues to deal with, but so do all of us. You need to seek out what is good and get rid of what is bad. And use any help you can find to get better...not find reasons why you can't or won't