Wolfram

After a long stroll through a dark path, I finally re-emerged.

Day 1...

I WILL do it..

Good day to everyone

doggonecarl

Welcome back.

You've had multiple day ones, Wolf. Sorry you've struggled. What are you going to do differently this time to insure this is your last day one?

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Glad you're back and giving it another go.

MidnightBlue

Hi, Wolfram!

Welcome back!

Glad to see you posting again,.

Hang in here, keep posting.

Wolfram

Thanks for the nice welcome back. I appeciate it. Yep many day 1 for me in the pasts months, so much so that it got me further down, with the day one getting further appart and my sense of hopelesness feeding on it. I went through very stressful time which propulsed me even further down the slope. The all too well known vicious circle of addiction.

For one, I followed a university course of one full weekend about Toxicomany and the cognitive approach towards addiction. Very good confrontation with myself.

I do not drink for a reason, there is a reason why I drank "using the past here".

For a start, I practice with mental imaging of surfing on my cravings, beautiful images of a bright blue sea that carries me further on, be it whatever time it takes to over come.

So I started to surf.

Because cravings do come and will continue to do so.

The mentality of WILL over WISH in order to pass through it. And I know that things will get better. And that it will be hard.

Life is too beautiful to waste away.

As to why now? 07 june 2013? The date inspired me and was my push off point to dive into getting sober ... and start surfing

This community is a great confort, and now the apps is installed on my iThings so it can follow me all aound.

I'm trying Kudzu roots also, and I carry aound my neck a pendant of St-John, the all mighty carpenter .

Many thanks again, I am not giving up! And I wish all the best.