angry but grateful...i can't drink like other people Finally made it to 4 months! Longest sober time ever!!! Just went out to a family birthday dinner at a restaurant the other night & it was HARD :( i wasn't scared i would drink at dinner, but watching everyone else drink actually made me quite anxious and angry to be honest. Angry at myself for not being able to "drink like other people"...but realizing that their casual 1 or 2 margarita's...would have paled in comparison to the 4-6 i would have had with dinner & don't forget the shots i would have had as well. I would have been drunk before the meal was over (and i'm sure embarrasing my husband and kids). I wanted to leave 10 minutes after arriving but couldn't. I was grateful however to be able to read my 5 yr old a bedtime story when we got home from dinner as this is something i rarely did while drinking. Ahh the good & bad days...mood...etc...it's like a rollarcoaster & i'm just hanging on to the promise that it will get better. I still think about drinking all the time...so glad i haven't listened to my dumb drinking thoughts!!! :gaah |
It will get better jstar :) Congratulations on 4 months :) D |
4 months is fantastic jstar. I totally feel your pain as I'm feeling those angry, resentful thoughts too. At the moment. It's like PMS but for alcohol. Mood swings personified. Anyway great stuff on your milestone S x |
Angry at myself for not being able to "drink like other people".. ? Do not be angry, have pity for them because they HAVE to drink. Change your thoughts . I Felt like you until I realised what they are actually doing and how cool it is not be doing what the masses are doing. Well done on 4 months. |
Congratulations on 4 months Jstar :) That's awesome :a122: I agree with DarkDays on this one. I frequently walk around at parties saying in my head 'I'm glad I don't have to drink anymore'. I say frequently but I avoid parties these days unless it is going to be guaranteed fun and I won't sit there thinking I wish I was drunk just so I could tolerate this... That said though the angry phase is probably pretty much unavoidable. It's part of the process and will get better x |
Each day brings the promise of better days ahead. I know that as long as I don't pick up a drink, things will continue to get better! Posting here is a great way to remind myself that I am not alone in this. |
Well done for being sober so long. I'm currently not and I'm finding it really difficult to break the cycle of drinking. I'm envious of your four month stint, I've never been sober anywhere near that amount of time and I hope that one day I will be. Here's to the future. |
one thing I had to do is get a different pair of glasses. when I got them, I saw that not everyone drinks alcohol with their meals. actually, I started seeint hat theres a whole lotta people that don't even drink! |
Originally Posted by AndiP
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Well done for being sober so long. I'm currently not and I'm finding it really difficult to break the cycle of drinking. I'm envious of your four month stint, I've never been sober anywhere near that amount of time and I hope that one day I will be. Here's to the future. |
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