90 days !!
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90 days !!
Hey people! 90 days for me, I have had four months sobriety before. That was two years ago.
In them two year I got into a very dark confusing cold place I kept drinking to keep a facade, I was using a swagger as if I was cool and in control but inside I was beat. I met some girls and got drunk at least three nights a week. I ain't a good drunk either, obnoxious and self absorbed. I also had a taste for drugs and the amount had just dramatically got larger in this new dark depth into active addiction.i again was beat.
This time I surrendered my ways of coping. I seeked a new way and I'm trying to learn to live it. It's been difficult and it challenges me. I'm still not ready to give up everything and I pray for guidance in a right way of living. I feel there is something strong inside me now, which is promised in the big book, I can handle situations which used to baffle me. I have Also experienced some spiritual stuff that I can't take for granted and say that it's not true. This is the way for me , I ain't no saint and I don't try to be I am just trying to be the best possible me. One that can reach all my potential rather than a waste of me and someone who couldn't give a damn. It's very difficult at the beginning and the nerves were all over the place at three month I ain't no expert but by getting to meetings meeting new people, and prayer and meditation and going theough ghe steps I think I'm on the right path to be true to self and find some serenity in this storm.
Peace and gratitude.
In them two year I got into a very dark confusing cold place I kept drinking to keep a facade, I was using a swagger as if I was cool and in control but inside I was beat. I met some girls and got drunk at least three nights a week. I ain't a good drunk either, obnoxious and self absorbed. I also had a taste for drugs and the amount had just dramatically got larger in this new dark depth into active addiction.i again was beat.
This time I surrendered my ways of coping. I seeked a new way and I'm trying to learn to live it. It's been difficult and it challenges me. I'm still not ready to give up everything and I pray for guidance in a right way of living. I feel there is something strong inside me now, which is promised in the big book, I can handle situations which used to baffle me. I have Also experienced some spiritual stuff that I can't take for granted and say that it's not true. This is the way for me , I ain't no saint and I don't try to be I am just trying to be the best possible me. One that can reach all my potential rather than a waste of me and someone who couldn't give a damn. It's very difficult at the beginning and the nerves were all over the place at three month I ain't no expert but by getting to meetings meeting new people, and prayer and meditation and going theough ghe steps I think I'm on the right path to be true to self and find some serenity in this storm.
Peace and gratitude.
I so get the fronting part... 55 day behind 'ya.
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