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Just woke up started cleaning my house but its hot and humid in here ..... Yuck! Been having some crazy dreams lately about seeing my friends who I've cut ties to in order to stay sober... In all of them we end up using :( makes me sad when I wake up..

Why are you sad? Do you miss using or the people you used with?

Oh sweetie, the torture our subconscious minds put us through! As if we are not punished enough! Take comfort in the fact that they are only dreams, residue of issues from the past. Just about everyone here will tell you they also have similar dreams, and we all feel out of sorts when we wake. Dreams are one part of your sobriety you cannot control, but make sure that they don't control you. Next time, jump up and down on you bed, throw your arms in the air and shout ' yeah, oh yeah! It was just a dream! I am sober and great!' Take the power out of it to hurt you.

Sweet dreams my friend

It's the person she was my BFF of 17yrs and I had to cut ties without saying goodbye

Thats sad, but you could write?

No we need full separation at this time we became toxic for one another and she will never understand why I had to do this. Instead she'll blame my husband and say he's making me which yes he kinda is but I know I need this.

Then perhaps you need to allow yourself to mourn the loss of your friend. Be kind to yourself and move forward. X