Almost Day One Again
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Join Date: Apr 2004
Location: a spiritual vortex, Colorado
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glad to hear ya roy!
in the AA rooms, they told me the steps are in order on purpose- took sober time before i could begin that deep emotional work....they were soooooo right!! Twice i started down the inner journey, only to realize i just wasn't operating out of a stable enough platform. Then it did happen. I was ready. I had a sponsor who had been thru much of my story. I had done the steps. And i had some time working on a spiritual base.
It still works today- alto i ocassionally have to be reminded to breathe, not to drink, stay in the present....the incessant tape loop playing between my ears has gotten real real quiet!
hugs - you know, in a john wayne, macho, walking tall, kind of way- LOL
mackat
in the AA rooms, they told me the steps are in order on purpose- took sober time before i could begin that deep emotional work....they were soooooo right!! Twice i started down the inner journey, only to realize i just wasn't operating out of a stable enough platform. Then it did happen. I was ready. I had a sponsor who had been thru much of my story. I had done the steps. And i had some time working on a spiritual base.
It still works today- alto i ocassionally have to be reminded to breathe, not to drink, stay in the present....the incessant tape loop playing between my ears has gotten real real quiet!
hugs - you know, in a john wayne, macho, walking tall, kind of way- LOL
mackat
Roy,
I'm so relieved too. You sound like you're going to be getting the help you need. You need to deal with the issues in your past and I bet that will make a big difference with your anger/anxiety.
Love, Anna
I'm so relieved too. You sound like you're going to be getting the help you need. You need to deal with the issues in your past and I bet that will make a big difference with your anger/anxiety.
Love, Anna
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Join Date: Apr 2004
Location: Somewhere Ca
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So GLAD to hear you made it a little further!
I think getting help to deal with your issues is a great idea. I call it "Emotional Throwing Up". You know how bad you feel when you have to throw up, but when you finally do, you usually feel soooo much better.
I also heard a saying once that I have always believed in. "You are only as sick as your darkest secrets". It really does help, when those dark secrets are no longer pent up inside.
You are heading in the right direction....one step at a time
I also heard a saying once that I have always believed in. "You are only as sick as your darkest secrets". It really does help, when those dark secrets are no longer pent up inside.
You are heading in the right direction....one step at a time
wiping a tear from my eye
You people are the greatest!!! I love you all!! Well, per our saint dans request I went to the hospital, my daughter threatened to call 911 if I didnt. They said that I had a nervous breakdown and severe anxiety attack. So today when I took my daughter to her psych, I asked to see someone. I now have my own psych, they said that they need to give me the best that they have because of my IQ/intelligence level. I can tell you that shrinks have the best drugs on the planet. I am here, cool and relaxed working as normal and loving life. This dude was on my intellectual level so we can relate. He too was criticized most of his life for being so damn smart. My daughter supports me 150% and I am there with her so hey, what could be bad with that. I admitted to my CEO what I am going through and he was only concerned about my well being and told me not to sweat it because I am the smartest man he has ever met and nobody could replace me if they tried. What cool people, ya'know, made me feel truly important. I will be drugged up and happy but I dont think it will harm my creativity, I think it will help. Love you guys.
((((hugs))))
Roy
((((hugs))))
Roy
This is a crack up
You will get a kick out of this. My daughter made me laugh so hard I about cried. We went to the store in my car and she said "yep shes a hooptie". I started laughing (which I really needed to do) and asked her what a hooptie is. She proceeded to do the Jeff Foxworthy thing except replacing the redneck with a hooptie. Here is what she said.
1. If you have bulletholes in the back of the car, it is probably a hooptie.
2. If the entire passenger side of the windshield is cracked but the driver side is not, it could really be a hooptie.
3. If you turn on the fan and it makes a loud noise and the engine dies, it is definitely a hooptie.
4. If your windshield wipers have one speed (high) its gotta be a hooptie.
5. If your rear bumper and rear doors are smashed in but the front is not, its a hooptie.
6. If you can start your car without a key, its a hooptie.
7. If you have to bang on your dash to get the stereo to play again, gotta be a hooptie.
8. If you have two perfect hubcaps and the other two are missing, its a hooptie.
9. If your hood is a different color than the rest of the car and has no paint left, its a hooptie.
10. If you have to only go a half turn, back off pressure and then turn again to eventually get your window down....Hooptie.
11. If you can remove your stereo and cd player without disrupting the rest of the car, its a hooptie.
12. If it has all this and still can outrun everything on the road, it is a hooked-up hooptie.
Just like mine.
Peace and Prayers,
Roy
1. If you have bulletholes in the back of the car, it is probably a hooptie.
2. If the entire passenger side of the windshield is cracked but the driver side is not, it could really be a hooptie.
3. If you turn on the fan and it makes a loud noise and the engine dies, it is definitely a hooptie.
4. If your windshield wipers have one speed (high) its gotta be a hooptie.
5. If your rear bumper and rear doors are smashed in but the front is not, its a hooptie.
6. If you can start your car without a key, its a hooptie.
7. If you have to bang on your dash to get the stereo to play again, gotta be a hooptie.
8. If you have two perfect hubcaps and the other two are missing, its a hooptie.
9. If your hood is a different color than the rest of the car and has no paint left, its a hooptie.
10. If you have to only go a half turn, back off pressure and then turn again to eventually get your window down....Hooptie.
11. If you can remove your stereo and cd player without disrupting the rest of the car, its a hooptie.
12. If it has all this and still can outrun everything on the road, it is a hooked-up hooptie.
Just like mine.
Peace and Prayers,
Roy
Alright guys/gals
nobody is posting so I guess I either scared everyone off or you dont like me on my meds. I love you all and am missing you. This from a 6 foot 2 inch 200 lb man. Geeezzz.
Miss Ya'll,
Roy
Miss Ya'll,
Roy
mir, you crack me up and thanks dan...for everything you know. Dot sorry my thing crashed, it just happens like that sometimes. Love the tornado dude, dan..What do youu mean that you do not like me on my meds mir???
Roy
Roy
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