tryinagain

Like I told you, I just unloaded on my wife and daughter, right. Well, they leave and go to the store and my wife brings home a t-shirt and bumper sticker from "happy bunny" that says,

"Your Anger Makes Me Happy"

Thanks,
Roy

Dan

Roy, I think you should get a shirt for your wife that says:
GLAD I COULD HELP!
lmao

mackat

when i was doing my 4th step, there were two other bros workin on many of the same anger issues- chairperson took one look and declared us 'murderers row!'

yep- most men in our culture are brought up to BE IN CONTROL- not only of everything and everybody, but of every emotion as well. Thats the beauty of the 1st step- i get to give it up. Not only is it about the powerlessness of my alcoholism- but later, i understood that i was finally becoming a true adult and accepting that change IS the reality of life. Not easy for a guy who was THE job site maniac-[ 8 yrs of recovery and i bet you can still find men around here who will tell you to never work for that a$$hole!] it took time and an incredible sponsor [the guy who made me look like a choir boy] til i could trust myself to have the rest of the emotions and not be ashamed of them...
rage only works as a control mechanism for so long- then $hit happens.
and most of it happened inside me.
hugs, goofy grin, lotsa love honey
mackat

mackat

can we get the back of that t shirt printed w/ the ol alanon slogan:

"my life's unmanageable and i want to share it with you!"

tryinagain

LOL, I could use that right now. I just came from the psych for my little one (14), and told her about my problem. She told me to call my physician who told me to call the mental health office, and round and round we go. I need some serious help at the moment, wigging out bad.
Roy

Chy

Hey Roy,

Holding your hand tight here. Keep posting. Do you have anyone from your fellowship, you can unload on? We're here for you as well!

tryinagain

help god, please help

True Blue

Roy Let us both pray right now. Dear God, hold my friends hand show him the light give him the strength & courage to win this fight. amen. Roy don't give up find a meeting or go to talk to a priest or preacher. Love you Roy.

Dan

Prayers?
I'm in.

tryinagain

I am praying as hard as I can, I am shaking so bad I cannot stand it and feel like I am losing my mind. I am hyperventilating and scared, man I dont know what to do.

tryinagain

I feel like a rubber band that is going to snap. I am trying to calm down as quickly as I can but it is not working and trying to regain composure, this has never happened before, not even the last time

In memory of miracle

Here for you ! Sendin prayers ^ This too shall pass..Trish.

Dan

Roy, lemme know man.

Little Missy

(((Roy))) My heart goes out to you!

Big Hugs,
Missy

CRS3

Roy,
Prayers from me
J

mackat

as my sponsor tells me- breathe mister breathe

and then a prayer - a prayer for 'just' a quiet mind

Roy- i have been down there where it is gray gone to black. I am here to tell you that i see colors today. hang in there. lots of folk are here with you.

love
mackat

Abugslife

I'm not an alcoholic, but I just wanted you to know that I have been watching you ever since you arrived. You were so full of hope. Try to hang in there, life can throw you some real dosies, but they don't last forever. Kids DO grow up, and can turn out to be some really great people.

Hope you are ok

Anna

Roy,

I hope and pray you are doing alright. If you get a chance, let us know how you are. I'm here for you.

Love, Anna

CRS3

Roy,
Still thinking and praying for you.
No matter what. Come back!
---J

tryinagain

Hey guys/gals,
Well, per Dan the mans suggestion I went to the hospital. I had an extreme anxiety attack and borderline nervous breakdown. They gave me some temp meds to get me through that knocked me out which is why I could not post to let you guys know what happened. They said that I never dealt with the pain of the family situation (same hospital) and other issues in my life and was just using alcohol to self-medicate the actual problem. I go to see a shrink in an hour or so which is convenient because my daughter has an appt at the same time. The only one that knows most of the story is Dot as I told her about it some time ago. I have had a really rough road and they told me that John Wayne only works in the movies and real life does not. I have to deal with these issues dating All the way back to my childhood as I have just locked them away and used alcohol to kill the pain. Without it, everything came rushing to the surface at once and that I do need meds but not alcohol. I agree. Thank you all and God bless you for being there for me. I am off to the nutcracker now...wish me luck and know that you are all angels in my eyes.
God Bless Us All,
Roy