Prescription meds: relapse? TL;DR version — I am sober and considering taking Adderall, which I was legitimately prescribed for years (but am currently without, for reasons outlined below). Would it count as a relapse if I took it? What would you do in my situation? --- I haven't had a drink in almost three months, have been going to AA, have a sponsor, am feeling pretty good about life and confident in my recovery. For two years I was prescribed Adderall for ADD, but my primary care physician stopped prescribing it in late 2011 because she wanted me to see a psychiatrist to get "official" ADD neuropsych testing. Until then, she had been trusting my self-reported diagnosis, which was diagnosed by a doctor in another state in November 2007, but she had no access to those records to confirm it. I am currently in the process of neuropsych testing after a long waiting period. Although I don't have the final word from my doctor about whether or not they think I have ADD, I very strongly believe that I do, and my previous doctor thought so too, enough so that he felt comfortable prescribing Adderall. So, I haven't been taking it for quite some time, and the difference is noticeable. I can still function, but I definitely think I function better with Adderall. Yesterday my friend offered to repay me for a favor with a couple Adderall. I am extremely tempted to accept the offer. In my mind, my addiction to alcohol and taking Adderall are very different things. Here's how I'm justifying this:
Have any of you been in a similar situation and have experience you can share with me? All thoughts would be appreciated. |
I would ask your sponsor. If you don't want to ask your sponsor I think you have your answer. I can't tell you if it would count as a relapse or not, you would have to decide that for yourself. If it were me I would wait until I was legally prescribed the Addreall. Since you haven't been taking it for some time why not wait and do things the legal way? |
I think it is very very risky... I have seen fail here on SR and I have my own personal experience with stimulants. Did you get addicted to alcohol while taking Adderall? |
Welcome starlessnight :) In the end, all we have is opinions - only you can decide whether you relapsed or not. What I will say is it's never a good idea to take non prescribed meds. Sounds a little to me like you're already sure that adderal is the answer to everything and self medicating....and thats never a good road for people like us to go down. D |
Sounds to me like nothing more then a lot of rationalizing and justification to use. That's nothing more then AV coming at you and I believe you know that or you wouldn't have posted here. You need to shut down that conversation you're having in your head pronto. |
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