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Join Date: Oct 2012
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Hi, Fishy. Welcome to SR!
Great that your boyfriend is supportive, and you'll find support here as well.
What's your plan to stay sober?
Keep posting.
Great that your boyfriend is supportive, and you'll find support here as well.
What's your plan to stay sober?
Keep posting.
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Join Date: May 2013
Posts: 198
So my rock bottom yesterday came by being picked up by the cops at my daughter's childcare centre. I only had one glass of wine. I was disoriented and acting off my face. I have since realised I had an anaphylaxis response. This is my wake up call. I can't even enjoy booze again ever now. It is very ironic on the day I had one glass I end up in hospital when usually I drink bottles every day.
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Join Date: May 2012
Location: Portland, OR
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Thank you for sharing with us that you are ready to stop. The first step, in my experience, is determining exactly what your problem is. If it's having a problem dealing with cravings, or a problem stopping after the first drink, or a problem with living without alcohol etc. Whichever it is, the good news is we can help.
I personally think that not carrying money is a great way to not drink for now, I assume your BF or someone else would be responsible for spending your money, for now, to provide the necessities. The next step, in my opinion, is to occupy your time in a sober, productive manner when you have nothing going on. However you do that is your decision, but I always recommend trying AA atleast once, just going to a meeting and listening for a bit. Being around others who are trying to not drink always helps me
I personally think that not carrying money is a great way to not drink for now, I assume your BF or someone else would be responsible for spending your money, for now, to provide the necessities. The next step, in my opinion, is to occupy your time in a sober, productive manner when you have nothing going on. However you do that is your decision, but I always recommend trying AA atleast once, just going to a meeting and listening for a bit. Being around others who are trying to not drink always helps me
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Join Date: Feb 2013
Location: North England, UK
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Hello and welcome!
Can I ask more about your anaphylaxis response? Was it solely caused by alcohol or combination of things?
Really would be dangerous to have another drink!
Did the hospital speak to you about possible withdrawals?
Hope you stick around, I've found it extremely helpful here.
Take care.
Can I ask more about your anaphylaxis response? Was it solely caused by alcohol or combination of things?
Really would be dangerous to have another drink!
Did the hospital speak to you about possible withdrawals?
Hope you stick around, I've found it extremely helpful here.
Take care.
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Join Date: May 2013
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The hospital was awful. I was treated like I was drunk even though I was swollen, had hives, vomiting, incoherent, my breathing was stopping and my heart was racing to the point I was collapsing. I will be going to my allergy specialist and getting it confirmed. I feel humiliated.
I know I am an alcoholic because I do drink to excess all the time and I can't stop. I just can't believe this happened. I know it was my fault for drinking 1 glass and with my past, I should never drink. This is my kick up the bum I need.
I know I am an alcoholic because I do drink to excess all the time and I can't stop. I just can't believe this happened. I know it was my fault for drinking 1 glass and with my past, I should never drink. This is my kick up the bum I need.
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Join Date: Jan 2013
Location: Around and About
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I know this sounds dreadful, but go to that bottle shop and tell them not to sell to you. It is just too easy. And I would tell them the truth; they deal with people all day long who have a problem and you will get a warm response. In fact, in my experience someone who works there does not drink because of addiction.
I did it, it was hard but I gained a new (sober) friend!
I did it, it was hard but I gained a new (sober) friend!
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Join Date: May 2013
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Well it is 4am on day 2. I have been trying too think of my triggers to try to avoid them. One is laying in bed watching a movie before bed. Another is facebook chat. (Most of my friends are very heavy drinkers). I took my daughter and son to have a sleepover in mummy's bed last night.
The voice of alcohol is strong....."nobody will know if you have one more. Make it a big one. A box of wine?"
The voice of alcohol is strong....."nobody will know if you have one more. Make it a big one. A box of wine?"
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Originally Posted by Fishy 
So my rock bottom yesterday came by being picked up by the cops at my daughter's childcare centre. I only had one glass of wine. I was disoriented and acting off my face. I have since realised I had an anaphylaxis response. This is my wake up call. I can't even enjoy booze again ever now. It is very ironic on the day I had one glass I end up in hospital when usually I drink bottles every day.
Originally Posted by Fishy
The voice of alcohol is strong....."nobody will know if you have one more. Make it a big one. A box of wine?"
Maybe you need more of a plan that simply not carrying money around - I think support's important, and you'll find a ton of that here.
There's face to face support in the 'real world' too like AA and other recovery methods, seeing your Dr, counselling etc.
Noone does this alone.
really glad you found us fishy - welcome
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I am tried to get a physiologist in the past but there are none in my area of the country who specialise in my issues.. The last time I saw one I was told there is no medications to help me and to just exercise more and that it is common for most people to self medicate. I have adhd and autism and anorexia/ bulimia that makes me a social retardation and a lot of why I drink so so I am not a complete social reject. It also stops my eating disorders. It was better to be the weird tipsy life of the party then the shy person everyone makes fun of and fails talks at university due to lack of eye contact.
My issue is that I have never been a social drinker. Always a solitary one who drinks alone in bed while on facebook or reading or watching movies i would drink first thing in the morning before getting out of bed and carry a coke bottle with vodka around during the day to keep my buzz on. Basically I need to have people around me to stop me drinking as I do it alone.
Today is day 2 and I am off to university and to suss out AA. There is not many groups around my area so I don't have much choice if I don't like the meeting.
My issue is that I have never been a social drinker. Always a solitary one who drinks alone in bed while on facebook or reading or watching movies i would drink first thing in the morning before getting out of bed and carry a coke bottle with vodka around during the day to keep my buzz on. Basically I need to have people around me to stop me drinking as I do it alone.
Today is day 2 and I am off to university and to suss out AA. There is not many groups around my area so I don't have much choice if I don't like the meeting.
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Originally Posted by Fishy
I really want a drink right now. I keep thinking I am more functional when drunk. Argh.
Give it a while and I have a hunch you will be so much more functional than you ever were drinking. A day 21er here feeling much much better than my day 1. Stick with it!
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