Hi Angelap! Welcome to SR - we all understand how you feel!
Holding on for dear life - I sure remember that feeling. Thankfully, you never have to feel this way again. 4 days is wonderful - and you should start feeling much better soon. It's great to be free of it...you're on your way.
You are so much more than the worst thing you've ever done. Fr. Greg Boyle
A little voice deep inside me said, "Hello, I am here." It was a small voice, & sounded as if it were buried underneath the cushions of my couch. It was my soul...I had forgotten it.