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Old 05-10-2013, 10:30 AM
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Grrr

You think you cracked this , month in and last few weeks been great

But yesterday and today !..grrr- chewing inside of my mouth to prices ,face all numb and monster is screaming to be fed !!!

Feel like smashing my head against a wall !!
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Old 05-10-2013, 10:35 AM
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Ignore that! You've come so far 2 let it get you. Stay the course...........starting over and over again is insane. Know you can do it! Sending you prayer and strength.
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Be kind to yourself, in thought and action. Do something nice and distracting! You have support here, you are not alone. Hugs, S
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HALT....are you hungry. Angry. Lonely. Tired ?
Keep posting. We will all help you to get through this!
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Old 05-10-2013, 11:07 AM
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Don't give into it Rainy...it's just a feeling and it will pass. You might have to white-knuckle it for a little bit but YOU are in control, not the AV or the feeling. Mizz's question is a good one: are you hungry, angry, lonely or tired? Something else going on?

Drinking will make it worse and you'll feel like hell later on or tomorrow. Really, you know you will.

Stay here with us, post as much as you can, and hang in there. You will be glad you did later...
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You can do this! Don't give in...you will only feel worse tomorrow. We are here for you.
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Old 05-10-2013, 11:56 AM
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I agree with HALT- generally I am one of them when I want to hit my head on the wall. I'm also reading and learning more about meditation. I'm trying to figure out how to find the "calm" in the storm so to speak! The other thing I do when I'm a real squirrel about drinking is to keep myself away from harm. I generally stay home so I don't tempt myself. I'm trying to create a place of peace and serenity within my home.
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Grrr. Yep me too today. Driving home from work I kept thinking nice glass of wine. Played the record and realized its a no no. But craving remained. Scared, I got home and just went right to bed! Lovely sunny evening here in Dublin, so it seems crazy lying in bed with lap top, tv, books etc. But in these early weeks if thats what it takes to stay out of harms way!
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Old 05-10-2013, 12:54 PM
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Originally Posted by rainyengland View Post
You think you cracked this , month in and last few weeks been great

But yesterday and today !..grrr-
Exactly what has happened to me. Weeks 1-4 weren't bad. I was feeling much better, then weeks 5 & 6 were really tough. Real life was setting in. Now I feel much better again. I probably would have felt good/lousy even if I was drinking/using. I have to remember that I'm going to have some bad weeks because "that's life".
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Old 05-10-2013, 12:59 PM
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Rainy , sometimes sober people have bad days , they "get out of bed on the wrong side" or lots of things can happen that make us uptight .

I hope you give it a few days and see where you are with those feelings , dealing with them and taking the pain is what i do " suck it all up and breath, look at the blue sky and learn how to cope with it " .. drink and drugs never delt with stuff or helped me cope . just deluded and confused me .

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Old 05-10-2013, 01:24 PM
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Thanks all - went straight to bed..ok now :-)

I could have just opened a bottle of red wine and clugged the lot back - it was a feeling I haven't had for weeks and a feeling I used to get daily when drinking soon as I got home from work. Not good- was very agitated

Anyway - onwards !.. Will not be beaten!
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Lately, when i find myself in a sour mood, i make a quick gratitude list. It grounds me and reminds me of all the really good things in my life.
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Old 05-10-2013, 03:31 PM
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So proud of you Rainy!! Keep going strong!
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Glad you're feeling better Rainy.

I think it's good to realise that, just like life, recovery not a straight line...just as we have bad days and we get through them, so we can have bad recovery days too....and we can get through those as well

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Sorry you went through that, Rainy - but you rose above the temptation. Great job. It does get easier and those times become less & less.
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Old 05-10-2013, 03:52 PM
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Your so right!..recovery is not a straight line

I been going through the last few weeks thinking everyday will be better than last

Perfect sense - thanks! :-)
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Old 05-10-2013, 04:02 PM
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Originally Posted by rainyengland View Post

Feel like smashing my head against a wall !!
maybe take a walk out in God's country

it is good for us to get outside and breath some fresh air
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Old 05-10-2013, 07:39 PM
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After my last recovery from heart surgery I experienced the same thing as I have with recovery from alcohol. Things are progressing and I'm happy how things are going and I run into a brink wall. Upon reflection it was usually trying to do too much because I set my expectations too high. Everyone has bad days so why shouldn't I? It's learning to deal with them that is the important thing and it sounds like you are doing a great job dealing with it now. Tomorrow is a new day and you will start it sober. What more could you ask for?
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