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day 1 Well today I am feeling very frustrated and sad. Have been trying for a year to stay sober. I say trying but that is not really the truth. I started going to AA meetings after I got a DWI. I was sober for 8 months and for some reason I stopped going to meetings and stopped calling my sponsor. It didn’t take long for me to start drinking again. Before my DWI I was an all day drinker drinking am to pm. After the DWI, I detoxed at home and swore I would never drink again. Did not last. At the point now where I am very scared as to what my future will bring. I guess I should face the fact that I need to put in the work if I want to be sober. I thought I would cure myself just by wishing I did not want to drink. The fear of going to jail (on probation), is not even enough for me to stop. I am going to a meeting tonight and am terrified as to what the weekend will bring. |
Welcome to SR. Read though the posts here. You will see a common thread...you get out of recovery exactly what you put into it. Go to the meeting. Recommit to being sober. Stay close to SR and you'll get through the weekend. |
Originally Posted by fishforever
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Well today I am feeling very frustrated and sad. Have been trying for a year to stay sober. I say trying but that is not really the truth. I started going to AA meetings after I got a DWI. I was sober for 8 months and for some reason I stopped going to meetings and stopped calling my sponsor. It didn’t take long for me to start drinking again. Before my DWI I was an all day drinker drinking am to pm. After the DWI, I detoxed at home and swore I would never drink again. Did not last. At the point now where I am very scared as to what my future will bring. I guess I should face the fact that I need to put in the work if I want to be sober. I thought I would cure myself just by wishing I did not want to drink. The fear of going to jail (on probation), is not even enough for me to stop. I am going to a meeting tonight and am terrified as to what the weekend will bring. The difference is like a bacon & egg breakfast. The chicken is involved and the pig is committed. All the best. Bob R |
:welcome When you come to the point that you want to stay sober more than you want to drink, then you'll be able to stop. |
Welcome fishforever. It's good to have you here with us. I hope the meeting is helpful for you. Please keep posting and let us know how you're doing. We care. :) |
hi and welcome fishforever :) yeah there's no magic wands of 3 wishes - just hard work I think. I really believe you get out of your recovery what you put in. you'll find a lot of support here :) D |
:welcome FishForever! Stick around. A lot of great genuine people here. Time for a new Bowl? |
Welcome to SR Fishforever. Sorry you are going through a rough time right now but it can get better. You had 8 months, that is an accomplishment and you know you can do it. This is a life long deal for us. You just have to get back to taking those steps to recovery and life can be good again. You are not alone and there are people who care!! |
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