Day 441 Its day 441. Drinking is the furthest thing from my mind. At the moment, I am trying to live the most honest life I can. I feel productive and mentally sharp, but I am so lonely. I suppose I am living with the fact that I did not make important decisions and choices when I was drinking. Now I have to live with them. I feel trapped, I feel life is unfair at times and hard. My life is very basic now and thats fine. I don't need or expect more. I work, look after my child, go to bed. It would just be ice to have someone who understood, someone who cared. The only way I can describe it is being the odd one stood all alone in a chattering crowd of millions who all know each other. Sorry for this post. Its not good. |
First here is a big hug. I am sorry you are feeling like this. I know for me it is hard to relate to anyone that isn't an addict/alcoholic. You are still growing and learning this process definately is not easy. Day 441 is fantastic by the way Sasha. |
A hug from me too! Going off visiting the old fogies now. Yippee! My life is smaller than it has ever been. I know what you feel like. I think. 441 days is excellent. :You_Rock_ |
I can relate to the feeling of having a very basic life. I, however, don't miss the drama that I created in mine from my bad decision making. It is somewhat easier for me because I actually prefer to be alone a lot of the time. Do you do any type of volunteer work? I previously did a lot of work with our Department of Corrections and started doing some volunteer work. Sometimes I think I'm crazy because it does stretch me pretty thin on time occassionally, however, I love the interactions with people who need a second chance. Volunteering has made a big difference for me. Maybe there is something you could do with our somehow involving your child? Time heals almost everything. Give time time. |
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